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Now, I feel like I am a fairly shameless person. I honestly believe the last time I was honestly embarrased was in the 4th grade, when my EX best friend read aloud a note proclaiming my love for Mark who sat in front of me. Since, then, not much. But, I have definitely always felt like there are certain life situations that are essential to being human. And it's important to experience them, yadda yadda.
I went to a meeting tonight I should have not gone to. It was out of my league, and I was completely and utterly useless. It was uncomfortable and I was contemplating faking a phone call to excuse myself. It was plainly awkward. And embarassing. Embarassing to the point where I am absolutely sure everyone in the room is wondering who this dumbshit is.
So this is humiliation. Though humiliation seems like an extreme form of embarassment, but eh.
It's just really weird. Usually, your embarassment isn't confronted, and it blows off. But I can't believe I almost forgot what it really feels like, big time. Kind of chill, but I'll def be kicking myself for being such a loser for at least the next week. Then, maybe, it'll blow over too.
I went to a meeting tonight I should have not gone to. It was out of my league, and I was completely and utterly useless. It was uncomfortable and I was contemplating faking a phone call to excuse myself. It was plainly awkward. And embarassing. Embarassing to the point where I am absolutely sure everyone in the room is wondering who this dumbshit is.
So this is humiliation. Though humiliation seems like an extreme form of embarassment, but eh.
It's just really weird. Usually, your embarassment isn't confronted, and it blows off. But I can't believe I almost forgot what it really feels like, big time. Kind of chill, but I'll def be kicking myself for being such a loser for at least the next week. Then, maybe, it'll blow over too.