the heart of the matter =]
the heart of the matter by India Arie
I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And all the struggles we went through
How I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?
I've been learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning them again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore
These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
And the trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
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And the work they put between us,
You know it doesn't keep us warm
I've been trying to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know, the less I understand
And all the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my heart is so shattered
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore
All the people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down, you know they hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on
You keep carrin' that anger, it'll eat you up inside
I wanna be happily everafter
And my heart is so shattered
But I know it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I'm thinkin' about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if you don't love me anymore
Even if you don't love me anymore
So these lyrics are awesome =] they remind me of everyone at school. i love them all so much. they have all made a huge difference in my life. Ha and they're all so unaware of how much they have impacted my life. Even down to the people who might have made my life a living hell at one point. But im thankful for them. They may hate me and think that they're upset with me for a reason that they believe is completely just. But they dont even realize that if they put all the puzzle pieces together, they'd realize that we were both pawns in someones twisted lie. sigh. but i dont hate them. im just disappointed i suppose. But there's not much i can do now. too late. but i regret nothing that i had done. if it made me happy, then why should i regret it. i dont. i miss everyone oh so much!
I miss my boys. but they're not all going to be there this semester! =[ this makes me sad! Colin who practically became my best friend last semester is leaving and so is sweet sweet joe. And tom is going up to UP! man...who am i supposed to fight with this year! i cant fight with zack cos well he's zack lol. i wouldnt want to fight with him. he's fun enough without the fighting =] But at least i'll have him and nile! Dion will be there, but he'll only be there till first semester =[. that makes me sad of course. i couldnt forget about him. no definitely not. sigh. But before i open up that can of worms i should probably finish what i was saying before lol. And i'll have erin and vanessa and amber and mick and and and....=\ hmmm who else would i have? i cant really remember right now. But i would have to say that those people, those wonderful people will be my company next year. unless something goes terribly wrong. but let's hope that isnt the case. sigh but like i was saying earlier about that goof. it'll be hard to let him go. i feel worse for erin. she's known him since she first arrived. oh man. that's going to be one emotional day i can tell you that right now.and Linda's leaving too! holy crap! erin's going to be a mess! what the fuck! oh man i totally forgot about that! jeez. im really not looking forward to winter at all. it's going to be too depressing. oh wow im starting to tear up about it. oh no. just a moment. wow see i almost cried when colin left. cos well he was a big part of my life. like we became great friends and it really hurt to see him go and knowing that he wasnt coming back next semester really hurt. he really was one of the greatest friends i could ever ask for. i hope we continue to be good or great friends for a real long time. he's such an amazing person. And tom's such a great person too! oh man he and i can have such great talks about anything it's amazing. he pretends to be such a tough guy, but really he's a big ol softie haha and he's whipped.lol i love his girlfriend charity.she's amazing! im glad they're together. they fit well together. i cant really imagine them not being together. Joe! my joe! if i ever wanted a completely random conversation about anything, i would go to joe. and he makes me feel pretty =] i always enjoy saying hi to him lol. it's always "Hey cuuutie" or "haha high five buddy." i always felt like a girl around him and i also felt like one of the guys at the same time. i'll miss him. and i can always count on him to have any kind of conversation. doesnt matter where or when, but he will always answer my texts or send me a text back. what a great guy. i hope he finds a wonderful girl worthy of having him. my boys! oh i miss them already! i miss them like crazy! I miss all of them like crazy =[ too bad i'll only see half of them when i return. =[[
man! college is so emotional! i blame it on the dorms. mainly because you get so attached to everyone! and then they leave for UP which is the dumb part cos then you have to say bye and then not see them for like a year or two and then you get to see them again. bleh. now im just pissed and i miss my friends T_____T;;
i miss my home, i miss my shelter, i miss my life, i miss everything about it.I MISS HOME!!!!! when can i go back?
I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And all the struggles we went through
How I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?
I've been learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning them again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore
These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
And the trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
[ The Heart Of The Matter lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
And the work they put between us,
You know it doesn't keep us warm
I've been trying to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know, the less I understand
And all the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my heart is so shattered
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore
All the people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down, you know they hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on
You keep carrin' that anger, it'll eat you up inside
I wanna be happily everafter
And my heart is so shattered
But I know it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I'm thinkin' about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if you don't love me anymore
Even if you don't love me anymore
So these lyrics are awesome =] they remind me of everyone at school. i love them all so much. they have all made a huge difference in my life. Ha and they're all so unaware of how much they have impacted my life. Even down to the people who might have made my life a living hell at one point. But im thankful for them. They may hate me and think that they're upset with me for a reason that they believe is completely just. But they dont even realize that if they put all the puzzle pieces together, they'd realize that we were both pawns in someones twisted lie. sigh. but i dont hate them. im just disappointed i suppose. But there's not much i can do now. too late. but i regret nothing that i had done. if it made me happy, then why should i regret it. i dont. i miss everyone oh so much!
I miss my boys. but they're not all going to be there this semester! =[ this makes me sad! Colin who practically became my best friend last semester is leaving and so is sweet sweet joe. And tom is going up to UP! man...who am i supposed to fight with this year! i cant fight with zack cos well he's zack lol. i wouldnt want to fight with him. he's fun enough without the fighting =] But at least i'll have him and nile! Dion will be there, but he'll only be there till first semester =[. that makes me sad of course. i couldnt forget about him. no definitely not. sigh. But before i open up that can of worms i should probably finish what i was saying before lol. And i'll have erin and vanessa and amber and mick and and and....=\ hmmm who else would i have? i cant really remember right now. But i would have to say that those people, those wonderful people will be my company next year. unless something goes terribly wrong. but let's hope that isnt the case. sigh but like i was saying earlier about that goof. it'll be hard to let him go. i feel worse for erin. she's known him since she first arrived. oh man. that's going to be one emotional day i can tell you that right now.and Linda's leaving too! holy crap! erin's going to be a mess! what the fuck! oh man i totally forgot about that! jeez. im really not looking forward to winter at all. it's going to be too depressing. oh wow im starting to tear up about it. oh no. just a moment. wow see i almost cried when colin left. cos well he was a big part of my life. like we became great friends and it really hurt to see him go and knowing that he wasnt coming back next semester really hurt. he really was one of the greatest friends i could ever ask for. i hope we continue to be good or great friends for a real long time. he's such an amazing person. And tom's such a great person too! oh man he and i can have such great talks about anything it's amazing. he pretends to be such a tough guy, but really he's a big ol softie haha and he's whipped.lol i love his girlfriend charity.she's amazing! im glad they're together. they fit well together. i cant really imagine them not being together. Joe! my joe! if i ever wanted a completely random conversation about anything, i would go to joe. and he makes me feel pretty =] i always enjoy saying hi to him lol. it's always "Hey cuuutie" or "haha high five buddy." i always felt like a girl around him and i also felt like one of the guys at the same time. i'll miss him. and i can always count on him to have any kind of conversation. doesnt matter where or when, but he will always answer my texts or send me a text back. what a great guy. i hope he finds a wonderful girl worthy of having him. my boys! oh i miss them already! i miss them like crazy! I miss all of them like crazy =[ too bad i'll only see half of them when i return. =[[
man! college is so emotional! i blame it on the dorms. mainly because you get so attached to everyone! and then they leave for UP which is the dumb part cos then you have to say bye and then not see them for like a year or two and then you get to see them again. bleh. now im just pissed and i miss my friends T_____T;;
i miss my home, i miss my shelter, i miss my life, i miss everything about it.I MISS HOME!!!!! when can i go back?