Substance Abuse
zdh was right - there is very little of substance that flows out of my fingertips on this site. I wasn't terribly insightful then, and I certainly haven't made any advances up til now. What I can offer is my take on a few things, and a glimpse into my life, including plans that I think will ultimately make me a bit happier.
i've come to the sad realization that i'm not cut out for this line of work. i think it was naiveté that made me think sales was my calling. more realistically i think it was the lure of big money. i failed to take my character and moral stance on things into account before embarking on that path, and for a few months at least found that sales just might be right. now, though, under the new regime, i've found that sales is a backhanded, dirty profession - at least where i am - and i want nothing to do with it. i'm sick of edicts from on high. we're all tired of not being appreciated, and i'm sick of the lies that spew from the collective mouths of upper management. we all know we can't trust them, and that makes it extremely hard to try to coerce our customers into trusting us.
in addition, i'm just generally tired of the rediculous tasks assigned to my group. there is honestly no good reason for me to have to document who i've talked to in a day, because each day the list will be mostly the same. it's just an added bonus to my already overflowing work day. fun.
so, as you may well know if you read my journal with any sort of regularity, i've decided that i missed the mark in making my career choice. i've enrolled at the local community college to pick up a few rogue classes that i assumed i'd never need (psych, stats, etc.) and am hopeful that i'll remember enough of what i've learned in past years to do well on the GRE. with any luck at all i will be accepted into one of three MSN programs, and in just around 4 years (including prep time) i will have a masters in nursing. i have no idea if nursing is my calling, but i do know this: you get to help people and you don't have to upsell. in my world, that is the best thing i've heard in a long time.
i'm busy making plans that i don't know will come to pass, and that is scary. i'm already wondering how i'll afford tuition, books, etc. and i'm trying to figure out ways to dupe management into letting me continue on here for a while though i wont be able to travel for work, attend some meetings, and possibly have to work off hours so i can attend class. i guess the worst they can do is fire me - and even then i'd get unemployment benefits.
i start classes on the 31st, and i can't begin to tell you how psyched i am. it will suck, and i will bitch, but going back to school is so close to the light at the end of the proverbial tunnel that words don't quite do it justice.
so, in summary, i don't have anything of substance to share. for now, i'm going to go bury my head in the sand until it's time to leave to get a haircut.