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ok i think im just about ready to kill something. not rly but im so sick of everything. liek i just want everyone to get out of my life. i hate just about everything at this point in time. i rly just wanna move and not see anyone ever again. liek of course i wanna see SOMEE of my friends still but u get it. i just feel so drained and lately all ive been doing is crying and its rly fuckin annoying. i rly am hating school and a lot of ppl around me. everything is annoying. i just wanna fall asleep and like never wake up until i feel better. i rly feel like everything sucks and i fucking hate it. i feel like shit too cuz im fuckin sick and its so annoying when ur sick and ppl just fuckin get on ur nerves... yea its deffinatly happening to me.
also i rly hate when i try to talk to someone about 1 little thing, and they turn it all around and make everything my fault. ok sorry but ive really fucking tried hard to change to make myself a better and nicer person, and when stupid people tell mee they see no chang- it pisses mee off. its probably ur fault for not seeing a change bcause u dont want to believe that it actually happened. u dont want to believe im actually a better person, cuz u dont want urself to think that u want me back or something fuck this. im so sick of everything. i try so hard for certain people and im still letting myself go. and for a long time i thought i was the only one dragging u down. and yea i know i did but look now and look at the past couplee of months ive done nothign but be a fricken cry baby. its rly rly gay. im getting sick of it. i just want someone THAT ONE SOMEONE to realize that i rly rly rly have changed. i wanna be friends with people too. im not out to b mean to ppl anymore. and i hung out with this one person and i kinda do wanna be her friend again, even tho she sometimes is the cause of my problems bc i make her th cause. we used to hangout but it was a very rare friendship. we would be friends for like 2 weeks then it would stop then wed be friends again and stuff, idk. i just am getting sick of turning everyone away and being the BAD PERSON. because im always the BAD PERSON somehow, in someway. and it rly rly bugs meeee. and im just so stressed out about everything and no one will just LISTEN. i rly want this one person to listeen but the person like feels the need to turn away everytime i kinda need him. ok maybe my problems arent as big as other ppls but i still kinda need MY BEST FUCKING FRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i guess im just so disappointed in myself. and i need you there.
also i rly hate when i try to talk to someone about 1 little thing, and they turn it all around and make everything my fault. ok sorry but ive really fucking tried hard to change to make myself a better and nicer person, and when stupid people tell mee they see no chang- it pisses mee off. its probably ur fault for not seeing a change bcause u dont want to believe that it actually happened. u dont want to believe im actually a better person, cuz u dont want urself to think that u want me back or something fuck this. im so sick of everything. i try so hard for certain people and im still letting myself go. and for a long time i thought i was the only one dragging u down. and yea i know i did but look now and look at the past couplee of months ive done nothign but be a fricken cry baby. its rly rly gay. im getting sick of it. i just want someone THAT ONE SOMEONE to realize that i rly rly rly have changed. i wanna be friends with people too. im not out to b mean to ppl anymore. and i hung out with this one person and i kinda do wanna be her friend again, even tho she sometimes is the cause of my problems bc i make her th cause. we used to hangout but it was a very rare friendship. we would be friends for like 2 weeks then it would stop then wed be friends again and stuff, idk. i just am getting sick of turning everyone away and being the BAD PERSON. because im always the BAD PERSON somehow, in someway. and it rly rly bugs meeee. and im just so stressed out about everything and no one will just LISTEN. i rly want this one person to listeen but the person like feels the need to turn away everytime i kinda need him. ok maybe my problems arent as big as other ppls but i still kinda need MY BEST FUCKING FRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i guess im just so disappointed in myself. and i need you there.