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wow so many things have changed lately. and so many have not. work has been pretty chill...but im still struggling with my identity...who i am..and who im meant to be. i wonder if thats normal for someone my age. i would think so. lol. im starting to wonder what my calling is. i have this yearning burning deep inside me to figure it out. either that or maybe its my fever. i dont even know if im going to be able to go to vocal ensemble i feel all gicky and grody. blehhh
is it the idea that maybe im afriad to fail...that my very best wonyt be good enought that is the constant reason i find myself pulling myself back..unable to really understand why...except that perhaps i just wasnt meant to sing...who knows.
well im off my phone broke and i need to have it fixed so i can call patona and figure out as to when this weeks lesson will take place.
is it the idea that maybe im afriad to fail...that my very best wonyt be good enought that is the constant reason i find myself pulling myself back..unable to really understand why...except that perhaps i just wasnt meant to sing...who knows.
well im off my phone broke and i need to have it fixed so i can call patona and figure out as to when this weeks lesson will take place.