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its hard for me to admit when im wrong. like when something goes bad between me and a friend...even though i know i FUCKED up...andthey know i FUCKED up...its till really REALLY hardfor me to admit it...
or when i fuck up with a guy...its easier for me to put the blame on the guy...then for me to be a woman and admit..."hey i really fucked up. i know i initiated it...but the truth is...i dont want to move this fast...id rather get to know you because i think youre an amazing person...whose beautiful and totally worth knowing."
or when i start to fall really fast for guys and do really stupid things that i shouldnt do...like email them to much...etc.
or like when it comes to competition....id do anything to win..mostly because i refuse to lose...im afraid if i lose...i wont win anymore...
or when i start putting people diwn...its usually...cause deep down im afraid that people think of me as being like that person...
i wish that someone would come along and tell me that its ok to fall in love with someone really fast...that its ok to lose...that you dont need to always win..because deep down there are other things that make me special...and losing once doesnt make me a "loser"...that if i fuck up..its ok to admit...no sense in having pride over something that ridiculous...and most of all that im someone worth knowing.
*sigh*
or when i fuck up with a guy...its easier for me to put the blame on the guy...then for me to be a woman and admit..."hey i really fucked up. i know i initiated it...but the truth is...i dont want to move this fast...id rather get to know you because i think youre an amazing person...whose beautiful and totally worth knowing."
or when i start to fall really fast for guys and do really stupid things that i shouldnt do...like email them to much...etc.
or like when it comes to competition....id do anything to win..mostly because i refuse to lose...im afraid if i lose...i wont win anymore...
or when i start putting people diwn...its usually...cause deep down im afraid that people think of me as being like that person...
i wish that someone would come along and tell me that its ok to fall in love with someone really fast...that its ok to lose...that you dont need to always win..because deep down there are other things that make me special...and losing once doesnt make me a "loser"...that if i fuck up..its ok to admit...no sense in having pride over something that ridiculous...and most of all that im someone worth knowing.
*sigh*