Sleepless
I didn't sleep all night. I couldn't go back to bed, not to our room. So I was so thankful to have friends here. I knocked softly. It was late and I didn't want to wake anyone up. Katie answered, thankfully. She didn't have to ask me anything, just looked at my face, probably still puffy from crying, and hugged me and let me in. She told me I could sleep on the couch. Tanith and Sasha were already asleep. They have big days tomorrow and I didn't want to disturb them so I just took a spare blanket from the closet and curled up. Katie whispered, asked if I was okay, I said sort of, and that I just needed some time to rest by myself. So she left me alone and got ready for bed or something, I wasn't paying attention.
I can't believe I had to hear it from someone I barely know. How many other people knew? If Brad Santer knew...gosh, he talks a lot. Who else knows? Who else gave me looks of sympathy not because I can't skate but because my boyfriend cheated on me AND I can't skate?
I was tired. I went back to my room that night. Ryan said he was drunk, that he didn't know what he was doing. It doesn't matter. He knew what he was doing when he kissed her. Who the hell is she? she doesn't matter, he says. well, she mattered enough for him to kiss her. it's not like we were fighting. He could have walked down the hall and kissed me if he needed to kiss someone.
just when things were so good...
It's morning now. What do I do? I'll go to the arena. i'll cheer for my friends and i'll put on a happy face. i wouldn't miss today for anything. not even for him.
*Steph*
I can't believe I had to hear it from someone I barely know. How many other people knew? If Brad Santer knew...gosh, he talks a lot. Who else knows? Who else gave me looks of sympathy not because I can't skate but because my boyfriend cheated on me AND I can't skate?
I was tired. I went back to my room that night. Ryan said he was drunk, that he didn't know what he was doing. It doesn't matter. He knew what he was doing when he kissed her. Who the hell is she? she doesn't matter, he says. well, she mattered enough for him to kiss her. it's not like we were fighting. He could have walked down the hall and kissed me if he needed to kiss someone.
just when things were so good...
It's morning now. What do I do? I'll go to the arena. i'll cheer for my friends and i'll put on a happy face. i wouldn't miss today for anything. not even for him.
*Steph*