over the heartbreak, and on to"B"
well things are lookin good for me!...school is semi-good, except lunch, my lunch 2morrow is kinda bad!...but oo well, i make the best of it!...well those stupid girls havent bothered me yet!...its so peathetic what some ppl will do for attention!...but w/e...this entry is for Heather!...so im finally updating for you!...anyways, as for "B" we are back on good terms, well kinda....he apologized and said he felt really bad about what he did last time, and of coarse i forgever him!...but how can i not!...hes like my best friend!...its so great!...like knowing no matter what i always have him to talk to!...and he tells me sooo many things!...like i dont even think his best guy friends know!....i fell special!...o and when we were talking 1 time, i forget how we got into the convo, but he was like yea i dont really have too many girls who are friends, im like well you have me!!...and hes like yea, like your the only one i really like and talk to, then he said something like he doesnt really call too many girls, im like well you call me all the time!...hes like yea your different, im like how?!?!...hes like well your special!, i actaully like talking to you!...omfg! i was sooo happy!...im like awww i feel so loved!...lol...then we went on and talked for like 4 hours more, until we both got alil tired and decided to go...but man he can talk to you for hours at a time!...its like we are together, but w/ none of the perks of it!...lol...weird, but w/e!...(we arent together tho!)...how i wish we were!...but i see Jevon every now and then...but i dont really get the same feelin i used to get anymore, like i still kinda do, but i already know we arent goin to go back out, so im just like fucc it!...man seriously, if we were still together!...i would be like a damn nimpho!(i dunno how to spell!)lol...but we arent, but man, if i was w/ "B"....OOO WEEEEEE i dont know whats past a nimpho, but w/e it is, i'd be it!...hah....just like hearing his stories about his ex's and shit, he could be such a good b/f if he tryed, but like he told me he took 1 of his g/fs for granited cause she was sooo sweet and would always call him and say i love you and just shyt like that, and he just took it for granited he said, i was like wow, how can you take that for granited?!...im so proud of him tho!...hes studing to be a nurse!!...hes always talkin to me about it!...he got a new car tho...a silver honda accord!...cause i dont remeber if i wrote he crashed his old one, but he did!...i wanna see his new car sooo bad!...ughhh im like dieing to talk to him, but i dont wanna call him cause i called him yesterday....w/e tho!...if he wants to talk, he'll call me....wow, enought about "B"!!!....okay but anyways....i hung out w/ Chelsea E. for once, we havent hung out in sooo long!...we had soo much fun!, it was awesome!...i miss her alot!...i wish she went to Wellington, but she goes to centeral!...but shes gotta make the best of it!...i just want her to be happy!, she doesnt deserve to be unhappy and depressed!...she was saying how i dont deserve to not have somebody, like all these girls who have b/fs, dont realize how lucky they are to have found someone who cares about them enough to want to be w/ them and only them!...and if you end up cheating on them!...damn you!...but there are certain acceptions to this tho!...not goin to get into that now....another entry,...maybe!...but for now im out like WHOA!!!..lol....pieces!.
Love Alwayz,
Stephanie!