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I can't describe or understand what's been happening lately, it's just change, lots and lots of change, well I guess that's what it is at least. I feel so betrayed these days, by everyone, it's not like it's always intentional, but the things certain people say or do makes me feel so revolted. I can honestly say that there isn't a single person I feel any sentiment or attachment to right now, excluding Rebecca Bear of course, she's my other half not some useless friend I've only known for a couple of months. Everyone else can drop off the face of the earth. I'm sick of all these weird people in my life, how did they ever become close with me? Well there was a time when I shared some kind of bond with all of them, but they've all hurt me in one way or another or changed in the course of our friend ship. I can't stand it any more, I'm done, I'm cutting off all ties with everyone, all I'm going to do is focus on graduating and getting out of here before I lose who I am all together. I haven't felt like myself in so long, and I'm finally starting to understand why. I haven't been doing what I want, I've been doing what's convenient, no more, no more. I can't have my life stay the same, I'm going mad, I'm disgusted, I'm bored, and I'm angry. I'm done with all these people and this place, everyone has lost my friendship but I doubt they really care.