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I hate this so much. I'm absolutely petrified to go to a party or go out ever again. Why the hell did this have to happen to me? What did I ever do to deserve this? There's no one I can talk to and no one who understands what I'm going through right now. I've never felt more alone in my entire life. Is this how the rest of my college experience is going to go? Me sitting at home everyngiht while my roommates go out and have fun. They tell me they understand, but they don't. It isn't possible unless what happened to me happened to them. I want to talk to my mom about it so bad, but I just know it would break her heart to hear that something bad had happened to me. I just really don't know what to do at all.