Sometimes I just don't understand
Wellllllll it has been awhile since either of us wrote in here.The holidays have now passed and I am so glad. This was the first holiday season in 32 years I haven't been with my family. We sent Paul a box and listened to him on the phone as he opened it. He liked all the clothes but his fav was the San Andreas games for PS2. I did miss him very much but he is doing well in school and sports so that is all I can ask for.
My agravation with people came to full steam in the form of a Christmas card. De and I (mostly me) made out our Christmas cards and sent them out fairly early in order to make sure they arrived in time. We wrote small notes in them to let everyone know things were going well for us. We signed them all...Love Steph,DeAnna,Paul and Bryan. Simple enough I thought. After a few weeks we recieve a card from one of my many closed minded opinionated relatives. In the card my aunt writes a small note basicaly tell me I'm going to hell if I don't hurry and change my life (there wasn't so much as a Merry Christmas, not an I love you, not we miss you..... nuthing..... just you better change now while you still can). Not only did this hurt and disgust me but it angered my beautiful De. That was not cool by any definition of the word. I understand people all have opinions and I can respect that, but shit why can't they respect my opinions as well. De and I don't flaunt our relationship in front of others out of respect for their feelings, so why don't we get the same respect from people?
I sit and watch the news and it angers me that they talk about gays and lesbians as if it were some sort of disease. Well news flash ya can't catch it. In my opinion our fight in this day and age is no different then the fight Blacks had in the 50's. Maybe someday we will obtain the same rights and respect as "normal" couples. People always bring up God and the Bible. I respect everyones beliefs but don't sit there and because you have no other argument throw the Bible in my face. The Bible has been reinturpited so many times who really knows if the Bible today is exactly what God said. The God De and I believe in, is a loving, compassionate, forgiving and accepting God. How can I be judged for loving De with all my heart and soul and being committed to her and raising our sons to be fine young men? Something is wrong with that picture if we are judged negatively. I haven't and would never raise a hand to her, haven't and wouldn't never talk to her or about her in a disrespectful or demeaning manner. She is my soulmate and partner for life, so how can such a stronge stable love be wrong? Becuase some people say so? What if I said reading the Bible and believing in God was wrong (which I am not saying that, just an example)? Does that make my views right and their beliefs wrong? No it don't because it's nothing more then an opinion.
There is so much hate and killing in this world why try to add to it with discrimanation?
Damn I feel sooooo much better now that I have that off my chest. My first holiday season with De was wonderful. Waking up in her arms Christmas morning was amazing. Christmas eve we spent it at De's mom and dad's. We had a great dinner of ham,potatos and corn and after that it went down hill. This is a prime example of "If that's a devoted christain then I don't want to be one if I am expected to act like that" De's dad started complaining about the smoke in the house, Janice TRIED to explain the window was open for the fresh air, air purifier is going along with candles, however, he didn't want to hear any of it. His remarks were rude, hurtful and way out of line. The way he talked to Janice was uncalled for, degrading, and extremely disrespectful, and had he spoke to me like that he'd of had a good taste of Stephanie. And the thing that got me is after he chased her from the room with mean and hurtful not to mention embarrassing words, he picked up the Bible and started reading to his grandson the story of Christmas, like nothing happened. How do you so blatenly disrespect your wife and your family and then pick up the Bible and read from it, can we say HYPOCRITICAL? I haven't gotten to the comfortable stage around De's dad yet. I try, but the comfort I have with her mom, isn't there yet with her dad. It's like he is passing judgement on me yet he doesn't really know me as a person.
On New Year's Eve we went to Bob and Jenn's house for the family gift exchange. They went and spent Christmas with Jenn's sister and had a wonderful time. I love going there because they make me feel so welcome and part of the family. The kids are great too and Noel actually had a conversation with me. That made me feel good because usually she don't talk much. She's such a smart girl and is growing up to be a beautiful young lady like her mom. Khrys is such a cutie. He definatly is his father's child. Everytime I see him he gives me a huge hug. Such a sweetie, yet you can see the mischief in his eyes. He of course was bummed when he dicovered the cd we got him was edited. De quickly passed blame for that onto Jenn who just smiled and said.."Your mom said edited". Jenn made me the most beautiful afgan. It's sooooo soft and just lovely. I wish I was as crafty as her. She also made De and Bry fleece blankets that look so simple to make I think I could do it too. Gonna have to ask Jenn how much fleece she used and try to make one for my sister for her birthday.
Midnight almost passed us and we didn't notice. Lost track of time relaxing and talking and happened to see it was 12:00am..I didn't get to give De the earth shaking kiss I had intended, out of respect to her mom and dad being there (again as to not flaunt things in front of them) but I did make up for it later. Bry ended up spending the night and I drove home. De has this lil problem with keeping her eyes open while driving at night. Come to think of it that happens to her during the day too. May have to get some duct tape for her eye lids for driving.LOL.
Well my rant is over and you all can come out from hiding. I'm sure there will be more rants but for now that's all I got.
Love and peace for all and remember..treat others as you would want to be treated...if we were all the same think of what a dull boring world we would live in..Love you....Steph
My agravation with people came to full steam in the form of a Christmas card. De and I (mostly me) made out our Christmas cards and sent them out fairly early in order to make sure they arrived in time. We wrote small notes in them to let everyone know things were going well for us. We signed them all...Love Steph,DeAnna,Paul and Bryan. Simple enough I thought. After a few weeks we recieve a card from one of my many closed minded opinionated relatives. In the card my aunt writes a small note basicaly tell me I'm going to hell if I don't hurry and change my life (there wasn't so much as a Merry Christmas, not an I love you, not we miss you..... nuthing..... just you better change now while you still can). Not only did this hurt and disgust me but it angered my beautiful De. That was not cool by any definition of the word. I understand people all have opinions and I can respect that, but shit why can't they respect my opinions as well. De and I don't flaunt our relationship in front of others out of respect for their feelings, so why don't we get the same respect from people?
I sit and watch the news and it angers me that they talk about gays and lesbians as if it were some sort of disease. Well news flash ya can't catch it. In my opinion our fight in this day and age is no different then the fight Blacks had in the 50's. Maybe someday we will obtain the same rights and respect as "normal" couples. People always bring up God and the Bible. I respect everyones beliefs but don't sit there and because you have no other argument throw the Bible in my face. The Bible has been reinturpited so many times who really knows if the Bible today is exactly what God said. The God De and I believe in, is a loving, compassionate, forgiving and accepting God. How can I be judged for loving De with all my heart and soul and being committed to her and raising our sons to be fine young men? Something is wrong with that picture if we are judged negatively. I haven't and would never raise a hand to her, haven't and wouldn't never talk to her or about her in a disrespectful or demeaning manner. She is my soulmate and partner for life, so how can such a stronge stable love be wrong? Becuase some people say so? What if I said reading the Bible and believing in God was wrong (which I am not saying that, just an example)? Does that make my views right and their beliefs wrong? No it don't because it's nothing more then an opinion.
There is so much hate and killing in this world why try to add to it with discrimanation?
Damn I feel sooooo much better now that I have that off my chest. My first holiday season with De was wonderful. Waking up in her arms Christmas morning was amazing. Christmas eve we spent it at De's mom and dad's. We had a great dinner of ham,potatos and corn and after that it went down hill. This is a prime example of "If that's a devoted christain then I don't want to be one if I am expected to act like that" De's dad started complaining about the smoke in the house, Janice TRIED to explain the window was open for the fresh air, air purifier is going along with candles, however, he didn't want to hear any of it. His remarks were rude, hurtful and way out of line. The way he talked to Janice was uncalled for, degrading, and extremely disrespectful, and had he spoke to me like that he'd of had a good taste of Stephanie. And the thing that got me is after he chased her from the room with mean and hurtful not to mention embarrassing words, he picked up the Bible and started reading to his grandson the story of Christmas, like nothing happened. How do you so blatenly disrespect your wife and your family and then pick up the Bible and read from it, can we say HYPOCRITICAL? I haven't gotten to the comfortable stage around De's dad yet. I try, but the comfort I have with her mom, isn't there yet with her dad. It's like he is passing judgement on me yet he doesn't really know me as a person.
On New Year's Eve we went to Bob and Jenn's house for the family gift exchange. They went and spent Christmas with Jenn's sister and had a wonderful time. I love going there because they make me feel so welcome and part of the family. The kids are great too and Noel actually had a conversation with me. That made me feel good because usually she don't talk much. She's such a smart girl and is growing up to be a beautiful young lady like her mom. Khrys is such a cutie. He definatly is his father's child. Everytime I see him he gives me a huge hug. Such a sweetie, yet you can see the mischief in his eyes. He of course was bummed when he dicovered the cd we got him was edited. De quickly passed blame for that onto Jenn who just smiled and said.."Your mom said edited". Jenn made me the most beautiful afgan. It's sooooo soft and just lovely. I wish I was as crafty as her. She also made De and Bry fleece blankets that look so simple to make I think I could do it too. Gonna have to ask Jenn how much fleece she used and try to make one for my sister for her birthday.
Midnight almost passed us and we didn't notice. Lost track of time relaxing and talking and happened to see it was 12:00am..I didn't get to give De the earth shaking kiss I had intended, out of respect to her mom and dad being there (again as to not flaunt things in front of them) but I did make up for it later. Bry ended up spending the night and I drove home. De has this lil problem with keeping her eyes open while driving at night. Come to think of it that happens to her during the day too. May have to get some duct tape for her eye lids for driving.LOL.
Well my rant is over and you all can come out from hiding. I'm sure there will be more rants but for now that's all I got.
Love and peace for all and remember..treat others as you would want to be treated...if we were all the same think of what a dull boring world we would live in..Love you....Steph