right now it cant get any worse.
i hate it how every time i get ready to go somewhere-not knowing where im going i find absolutely nothing to do.... but when i have no time to get ready and look halfway decent there are a million things on my agenda. this is the getting really annoying. last weekend was great. this weekend is the exact opposite. i hate updating anymore cuz nobosy comments on it anyways. its not gonna be friends only anymore cuz thats just what i have decided.
i really wish i knew where my life was taking me. i still havent registered for classes at Delta and if i dont in the next couple of days i wont be able to. school can wait...? i really wanna save for a newer car i have my heart set on this goal. its more important to me than anything else right now.. why is this? because i would feel safer driving. my car stalled on me like 5 times this week. its rediculous. its old, time for a change. i need to find a better paying job. 7.00 isnt cutting it anymore, not for what i am going to have to pay for in the next year. my sister got a new car... why cant i? she only makes 1.00 more than i do an hour. i know i need to go to school, and if i dont go now ill never go back, but think after i get the car i want, then i will go to school and not quit. i dont even know what i wanna do yet. maybe i just need some time to think about it, and when i decide then i will know what to do. sorry im rambling on and on but you dont have to read this and this is why its my journal.
- i really need to hang out with different people, the people i hang out with dont even seem to care about me as a friend half the time. not one of my friends remembered my birthday NOT ONE! even a simple happy birthday would be fine for me. it just really got me down.
i think its time for me to be in a relationship. i need someone i can count on. its been almost a year since ive had one. i really need someone who understands me and who i can trust. someone who wont play games with me, and lead me on one minute then not return my phone calls the next minute.
sorry this is soo long but i dont know how to put it in a cut.
<3
i really wish i knew where my life was taking me. i still havent registered for classes at Delta and if i dont in the next couple of days i wont be able to. school can wait...? i really wanna save for a newer car i have my heart set on this goal. its more important to me than anything else right now.. why is this? because i would feel safer driving. my car stalled on me like 5 times this week. its rediculous. its old, time for a change. i need to find a better paying job. 7.00 isnt cutting it anymore, not for what i am going to have to pay for in the next year. my sister got a new car... why cant i? she only makes 1.00 more than i do an hour. i know i need to go to school, and if i dont go now ill never go back, but think after i get the car i want, then i will go to school and not quit. i dont even know what i wanna do yet. maybe i just need some time to think about it, and when i decide then i will know what to do. sorry im rambling on and on but you dont have to read this and this is why its my journal.
- i really need to hang out with different people, the people i hang out with dont even seem to care about me as a friend half the time. not one of my friends remembered my birthday NOT ONE! even a simple happy birthday would be fine for me. it just really got me down.
i think its time for me to be in a relationship. i need someone i can count on. its been almost a year since ive had one. i really need someone who understands me and who i can trust. someone who wont play games with me, and lead me on one minute then not return my phone calls the next minute.
sorry this is soo long but i dont know how to put it in a cut.
<3