like chills up my spine
so its tuesday and i haven't written in this since forever ago...I'm not feeling too well so i took the day out of school...i really should start going more often. Had kinda a bad past few days. Friday night on top of being extremely sick aram and i decided to take a break for a little while. I dont exactly even know what that means but it sucks. We're not going to see other people, but we're just kinda taking a break from being with each other all the time i guess? Idk i miss him. Saturday i think i was still pretty upset about the whole thing, but i went over jesse's and just played beer pong for the evening. It wasn't a bad time...i find if i keep myself occupied im not as likely to be upset. Then Sunday I woke up not feeling well...not because of drinking...i think it was just anxiety. Went over to lynn's and chatted with her for a while and then helped my mom paint the house. I had a horrible day hitting at the institute that night...im falling apart i swear lol. But yeah I have softball now so i find myself keeping busy.
I think this little break thing could be a good thing..i mean i dont want it to be permanent, but i have been losing touch with a lot of my friends because i spend so much time with aram, so its nice to have some time to catch up. I do miss him though..perhaps well see each other this weekend...maybe.
Sometimes I just wish that things didnt have to be so fucked up. I mean me and aram are so good together...why does he have to live in boston...why cant i be going to boston next year...why does he have to take classes all summer...why couldn't we have just met each other like 5 or 6 years from now when we wouldnt have so many obstacles in our way? I just hope that we can get through all of this because he really does mean so much to me.
Life is so strange sometimes...right when you think your going in the right direction it goes and changes its course...figures.
Oh yeah...im going to be in Rich's movie YAY. lol if you're cool maybe you'll see it ;)
steph
I think this little break thing could be a good thing..i mean i dont want it to be permanent, but i have been losing touch with a lot of my friends because i spend so much time with aram, so its nice to have some time to catch up. I do miss him though..perhaps well see each other this weekend...maybe.
Sometimes I just wish that things didnt have to be so fucked up. I mean me and aram are so good together...why does he have to live in boston...why cant i be going to boston next year...why does he have to take classes all summer...why couldn't we have just met each other like 5 or 6 years from now when we wouldnt have so many obstacles in our way? I just hope that we can get through all of this because he really does mean so much to me.
Life is so strange sometimes...right when you think your going in the right direction it goes and changes its course...figures.
Oh yeah...im going to be in Rich's movie YAY. lol if you're cool maybe you'll see it ;)
steph