Mood swings suck way more than tire swings...
I have been so moody lately. A little more bitchy than usual. I am saying ruder comments(especially to Marjorie), that I wouldn't typically say. But she hasn't really seemed affected, I just don't want to get on her bad side, since I am in 2 of her classes. I am kind of scared where this semester is going since bitterness is taking the best of me. I am usually so forgiving, but people around me are pissing me off. Just little things too. I do have SAD which basically means that I am way more likely to get depressed in the winter time, but it is pretty mild. Plus I don't think we can just blame depression, we have to take responsibility of our actions. I think I am unsettled and ready to go on from UNT, but then I think "where"?? I am seriously thinking more and more about graduate school, now I just have to convince the parents, plus get into one. Today I saw Tomlanovich coaching Alex for his upcoming audition. I just ached for more specialized training and one on one coaching like he was receiving. Sally said to call if I EVER needed any help, so I should...I just want more work, I want more challenge. Marjorie's shakespeare class is somewhat challenging, but I really have no interest to act Shakespeare in the future. I wish peformance IV was more of an advanced technique class. On another note I had an opportunity to cheat on a quiz for theatre history and I couldn't.(Mike set a good example too) I mean I have to feel like I earned my grades. I never cheated before and I still can't. It made me realize that I REALLY REALLY just want to know everything I can, I don't want to take the easy way out. I am at UNT because I took the easy way out, so now I need to soak up every little thing it has to offer, so perhaps I can be ready for grad school. Random unsettled thoughts guys, I hope everyone else is a little more together at the moment.