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So i was going through all of the entries that i made before in this lil book i have at home, and well it just made me cry. all i have to say is brian keith ehlers...i lov him so much and theres nothing i can do about it. and i hate that! most of all, hes going out with vanessa penn! the one person i hate with a passion! and well wednesday my brother had court and well that went good surprisingly!! i couldnt believe that! and well around 2pm my aunt calls and says that my grandmas in the hospital and shes not doing that good! so i was there with her for several hours..i was so scared and upset!! i didnt know what to do! and well before all of this 2 of my friends get into a bus/car accicent! that was pretty scary!! luckily they're alright! i saw brian last night! i had to babysit for yvonne and scott and well brian was with scott!! omg do i love him so much! i cant get over it or even him! and im so mad at him that hes going out with that cunt! im still madly in love with him!! ahhh...i wish i could do something about it! well me and matthew are no longer speaking to eachother! i asked him otu about 2 weeks ago and well he said that he didnt want a girlfriend right now and i accepted that! what else could i do??!! and then that next week him and PEGGY r going out!! im like what!! what kind of shit is that?? plus. mitchel crow likes me now and he asked me out and well paige really likes brandon and well i know brandon likes me and to be honest with ya i kind of like brandon a lil i guess........but i would feel too bad doing that to paige so i think i might just tell brandon "whats up"!! and just tell him everything...like he has spilled his guts out to me before....soo..................