{4/11/2012} On gyms and booty
I went to the gym today and MAN does it feel amazing to get my body active again! Although the first day is always the hardest, I really do want to continue going and getting the endurance to do dynamic activities. I might be skinny, but that definitely doesn't mean that I'm in shape, and though I dance in my room once in a while, it doesn't add up to getting good exercise. I went to Zumba, which is a class where there is up tempo music and energetic movements that involve literally all parts of the body, and it's exhilarating, but it'll kick your ass if you're not fit. I haven't sweat that much in a long time, which is a great thing.
I feel like as of late I haven't been taking good care of my body, both inside and out. My diet is quite bipolar, where one week it can include tons of carbs, protein, sodas and junk foods; or on the flip side, I have home cooked meals with iced tea, drink tons of water, and try to avoid any excess foods. I can't really blame anything other than I just don't really check on my intake, and I just eat whatever comes. I'm thankful that I can at least choose, rather than have nothing at all.
It probably also has to do with the way I've been feeling about my body recently. Earlier in 2011, I started to have a lot of skin problems all around my neck and back area that initially was presumed to be a sun allergy, and which later was, again presumably, diagnosed as Psoriasis, or some other type of skin irritation/infection. I went to the doctor and it seemed to be getting better until it crept up as a dry patch under my eye, in the crease of my eyelid, all over my forehead...basically a larger portion of my face was extremely dry, a tad flaky, and pinkish; I also had a huge red patch on the fold of my neck as well. So now I'm going to a dermatologist soon to see what the hell this is, and what exactly I can do or take to alleviate it. From what I was reading about Psoriasis, it's usually triggered by the white blood cells working over time to try to fight an infection that isn't really there, and instead of shedding that area of skin regularly, the cells shed at a much slower pace, and thus causes complications.
Alternatively, I've been told that generally those with a skin condition like this over produce the bacteria that protects the skin, and when there's an opening in the skin for the bacteria to slip in underneath, it causes these problems. In any case, it's an annoying and uncomfortable feeling to look in the mirror and see a red patch under your eye as if you've been beaten up by someone. I'm trying to avoid putting foundation or concealer around that area so it can breathe as much as possible, but sometimes I just need to conceal the redness because it's too much.
Another thing I did recently was cut most of my hair in a bob style, by myself. I've decided to stop going to hair stylists because none of them know how to work with curly hair, and I don't really plan on dropping more money on a "specialist" when I can deal with my own hair, since I know it best. Unfortunately, my last conquest in trying something new didn't really suit me and although many people love my short hair, I'm beginning to get annoyed by the poofy-ness, the thickness, the incessant wave of frizzed up hair that flies into my face. I haven't cut it this short since middle school, which was awkward-town for any pre-teen, but thankfully it hasn't look too bad this time around, just all over the place. I love my hair, I really do, but sometimes it's a bitch and a half to deal with. So I keep on putting my hair up, so that coupled with my skin condition is just making me feel a lliiittttllee bit self conscious, but it's all good.
That, and my breasts being big and making most of the clothes I wear look awkward, but that's beside the point. I will never speak ill of my precious gems!
Going to the gym gave me a revitalized look on how I am in physique. Some of the women in the locker room just don't care if they walk around naked...good for them! I happened to be one of these people, and it's not about showing off your goodies, it's about being comfortable in the skin your in, although I don't doubt some of those ladies just love to parade their bodies around to show their progress. I shouldn't worry if I'm too skinny or too whatever, I accept my body for what it is: beautiful and natural. I might put on some makeup and glamorize myself, but at the end of the day, my tricks of the trade are the things that my mammy gave me, and I will try to never take those things for granted.
I feel like as of late I haven't been taking good care of my body, both inside and out. My diet is quite bipolar, where one week it can include tons of carbs, protein, sodas and junk foods; or on the flip side, I have home cooked meals with iced tea, drink tons of water, and try to avoid any excess foods. I can't really blame anything other than I just don't really check on my intake, and I just eat whatever comes. I'm thankful that I can at least choose, rather than have nothing at all.
It probably also has to do with the way I've been feeling about my body recently. Earlier in 2011, I started to have a lot of skin problems all around my neck and back area that initially was presumed to be a sun allergy, and which later was, again presumably, diagnosed as Psoriasis, or some other type of skin irritation/infection. I went to the doctor and it seemed to be getting better until it crept up as a dry patch under my eye, in the crease of my eyelid, all over my forehead...basically a larger portion of my face was extremely dry, a tad flaky, and pinkish; I also had a huge red patch on the fold of my neck as well. So now I'm going to a dermatologist soon to see what the hell this is, and what exactly I can do or take to alleviate it. From what I was reading about Psoriasis, it's usually triggered by the white blood cells working over time to try to fight an infection that isn't really there, and instead of shedding that area of skin regularly, the cells shed at a much slower pace, and thus causes complications.
Alternatively, I've been told that generally those with a skin condition like this over produce the bacteria that protects the skin, and when there's an opening in the skin for the bacteria to slip in underneath, it causes these problems. In any case, it's an annoying and uncomfortable feeling to look in the mirror and see a red patch under your eye as if you've been beaten up by someone. I'm trying to avoid putting foundation or concealer around that area so it can breathe as much as possible, but sometimes I just need to conceal the redness because it's too much.
Another thing I did recently was cut most of my hair in a bob style, by myself. I've decided to stop going to hair stylists because none of them know how to work with curly hair, and I don't really plan on dropping more money on a "specialist" when I can deal with my own hair, since I know it best. Unfortunately, my last conquest in trying something new didn't really suit me and although many people love my short hair, I'm beginning to get annoyed by the poofy-ness, the thickness, the incessant wave of frizzed up hair that flies into my face. I haven't cut it this short since middle school, which was awkward-town for any pre-teen, but thankfully it hasn't look too bad this time around, just all over the place. I love my hair, I really do, but sometimes it's a bitch and a half to deal with. So I keep on putting my hair up, so that coupled with my skin condition is just making me feel a lliiittttllee bit self conscious, but it's all good.
That, and my breasts being big and making most of the clothes I wear look awkward, but that's beside the point. I will never speak ill of my precious gems!
Going to the gym gave me a revitalized look on how I am in physique. Some of the women in the locker room just don't care if they walk around naked...good for them! I happened to be one of these people, and it's not about showing off your goodies, it's about being comfortable in the skin your in, although I don't doubt some of those ladies just love to parade their bodies around to show their progress. I shouldn't worry if I'm too skinny or too whatever, I accept my body for what it is: beautiful and natural. I might put on some makeup and glamorize myself, but at the end of the day, my tricks of the trade are the things that my mammy gave me, and I will try to never take those things for granted.