tomorrow comes a day too soon

[stendarr]

wisdom is a funny thing...no mater how old you are, you always say things that seem wise at the time, but are really quite foolish...and in most cases, you figure that out at some point later...it makes me wonder if I'm still a shiftless dreamer, or someone more wise than the average...both are equally as likely...I often wonder whether it would be wise to allow the human race to continue existing...we destroy everything...I honestly can't name a single good thing we've accomplished as a race that doesn't somehow involve helping other humans...but then, why should we do that, because those humans that we help are just going to destroy more...I also wonder whether it is wise or me to continue existing...I mean, I'v known for 10 or more years the general area where I want to be buried....or at leas laid to rest...maybe even have a funeral pyre so I can be scattered about the valley...one must wonder what the point of continued existence is when you accomplish nothing, and already have your post death plans...

I feel very thin...I am not unhappy...but I don't feel I can be truly happy right now...I feel spiritually empty...I don't feel there is any good or bad left in me...I'm running on fumes at this point, and I don't know how to refill my tank...or even if I can...

whoever, if anyone, sent the bird to sing outside the window this morning....thank you...