May 13, 2009 17:51
i guess you can say i'm reaching my breaking point.
i've held my tongue for a while now and i've done a pretty good job at keeping an even temper most of the time this past semester.
there's a common factor that i've been finding in a lot of people's attitudes and reactions lately though...stress.
stress: difficulty that causes worry or emotional tension.
stress is something you put on yourself. as a student and an adult, each person chooses their major when they go away to school. they choose their work load and they choose which classes with which professors they take. there is no such thing as a more important or more stressful major because each course of study is important and the one that an individual chooses is based on their liking and preferences. as an American, if you don't like what you have to do, you have the choice to not do it...that's what changing your major is all about. you have the choice to further your education or not and with that choice comes other choices and you can only hold yourself responsible for the outcome.. no one else.
i find it very unfair for people at school this year to take out their stress on others. i know i'm guilty of doing it in the past but since i've changed my major to something that i like and want to do, i am no longer put in such stressful situations. there are always going to be deadlines and things to do, but that's where time management and planning comes in.
stress also comes in other forms such as money/debt, health, family, etc... even though some of these situations can be out of one's hands when it comes to control... an individual is still responsible for the way they react and handle each situation. as a functioning member of society, everyone is taught values on respect and how to gauge and manage their own mental and physical reactions. with this being said, it is one's own responsibility to manage their stress levels as to not put their own stress onto others..even though it's easier said than done, a sincere apology and an understanding of the wrong actions can usually help mend the situation if an inappropriate reaction arises.
i'm just so over it.
i'm over everything out here at Kent State University.
i feel like there is a lack of respect in many aspects of this town and there are a lot of selfish people here. granted, i will always love my friends out here, but i just cannot take having everyone's stress unloaded on me anymore.
i have my own agenda with my own work load thanks to my own decisions and plans.
if i have a problem, i fix it.. and if i don't know how to fix it, i figure out how to.
i don't rely on anyone besides myself to get my stuff done and i feel like this move to Bowling Green will allow me to continue my growth as an individual as well as allow me to be fully happy with my surroundings.