[KyuSung Fest] Look At Me

Oct 09, 2012 23:10

Title: Look At Me
Category: SJ Fanfiction
Pairing(s): KyuSung (main), EunHae and MinWook (if you squint)
Summary: Kyuhyun and Yesung have always been a little dense when it comes to their feelings for each other. Perhaps all they need is a push in the right direction… something that the members are perfectly willing to help them with.
Rating: PG

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“Kyuhyun-ah…” Yesung mumbled sleepily as he shook Kyuhyun in an attempt to wake him. He had been rudely awakened by the younger’s alarm clock a few minutes ago and came to switch it off. It always amazed him how the maknae could sleep through the din. “Kyuhyun-ah… Wake up…” He tried again, shaking harder. The sleeping boy didn’t budge.

Yesung turned to the other occupant of the room, thinking of getting Sungmin to help him. But the latter was also fast asleep. Sighing, Yesung looked back at Kyuhyun. The maknae was still in a deep sleep. And there was this empty space on the bed that looked so inviting…

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Kyuhyun smiled and snuggled into the pillow in his arms. It was so warm and cuddly… Wait, a pillow shouldn’t be so warm... His eyes opened a fraction and his gaze landed on a messy mop of black hair only inches from his face. The owner of said hair was sound asleep on his bed, cutely curled up to him. Kyuhyun stared, mesmerized, at his hyung’s lips, slightly parted in sleep. He could feel a ghost of breath on his collarbone as the elder exhaled. He idly wondered what those lips would taste like under his own… He unconsciously leaned closer.

The sound of a door closing startled Kyuhyun out of his dreamy musings. His gaze snapped from his hyung’s face to the door of the bedroom. His face heated when he realized that Sungmin may have witnessed his actions. His panicked, embarrassed thoughts were interrupted by the figure in his arms shifting. The sound of the door had woken Yesung.

Yesung blinked blearily at Kyuhyun. “Kyuhyun?” he yawned, trying to recall how he had gotten into this position. But it felt nice having the younger’s arms around him. After a moment, he noticed how red Kyuhyun’s face was. “Do you have a fever? Your face is really red.” He leaned forward to place his forehead against Kyuhyun’s to check.

But before he could do so, Kyuhyun had jerked into an upright position. In a flash, the younger was clambering off the bed. “I’m fine, I… Er, um... That is…” Kyuhyun gave up trying to form a coherent sentence and sprinted toward the bathroom.

Yesung was left on the bed, staring at the maknae’s quickly retreating back in confusion. “Kyuhyun-ah?”

In the bathroom, Kyuhyun leaned his forehead against the cool mirror. His face still flamed. Why had he reacted that way just now? He was acting like a schoolboy with his first crush. But that didn’t make sense! Sure, his hyung was beautiful, but they were both guys… Wait did he just think that his hyung was beautiful?

Kyuhyun groaned and started banging his head lightly against the mirror.

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Breakfast was torture, plain and simple. More than once, he felt his gaze moving involuntarily toward the group’s main vocal. Once, the elder caught him staring and gave him a small smile. Feeling as if he had been electrocuted, he quickly averted his eyes. This action, however, caused his eyes to meet Sungmin’s knowing look. The elder smirked, his expression saying ‘I know all about it’. Disgruntled, Kyuhyun fixed his gaze resolutely on his breakfast. If he stabbed the eggs with a lot more force than necessary, it had nothing to do with the situation. Nothing at all.

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Yesung lay on his bed, staring up at the ceiling. “Wookie… Do you think that Kyuhyun has been acting weird recently?”

Ryeowook paused in his search for a hat in his wardrobe and turned to look at the elder. “Weird? In what way?”

Yesung shrugged. “I just feel like he’s been avoiding me.” It was true. For the past week or so, it seemed as if the maknae was going out of his way to not be alone with Yesung. And his reactions to Yesung’s usual skinship were extreme to say the least. Even a simple touch on the arm resulted in the younger flinching violently and hastening away as soon as possible.

Yesung turned his head in Ryeowook’s direction. “Did I do something wrong? Is he angry at me?” His lips twisted into a pained smile. “Or was I finally too obvious in my feelings for him, Ryeowook? Is that it? Has he found out and hates me now?”

“I’m sure it’s nothing,” the eternal maknae assured. “He’ll tell you if something’s wrong.”

Yesung didn’t respond.

Ryeowook’s search finally produced the hat he was looking for. He glanced at his roommate, rather worried. “Um… I’m going to pass this to Sungmin-hyung,” he told Yesung before leaving the room. When the door closed behind the younger,

Yesung sighed and continued his staring match with the ceiling, trying not to feel so very alone.

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Ryeowook entered the bedroom shared by Sungmin and Kyuhyun, to find Kyuhyun in a similar position to the one he had left Yesung in. He sent a questioning look at Sungmin who was sitting on his bed, which the latter replied with rolling his eyes.

“What’s the matter with him?” Ryeowook asked as he gave the hat to Sungmin.

“Thanks.” Sungmin tried on the hat, checking his reflection in the mirror. When he saw Ryeowook looking in concern at Kyuhyun, he waved off the younger’s worries. “Don’t mind him, he’s just lovesick.”

Kyuhyun bolted upright. “Hyung!” He glared balefully at the elder. “Well, that’s the truth, isn’t it?” Kyuhyun’s face turned cherry red and he flopped back down on the bed, muttering something incomprehensible.

Ryeowook’s eyes widened with realization. “So that’s why… But Kyu-ah, you should stop avoiding Yesung-hyung.”

Kyuhyun didn’t move but Ryeowook knew that he was listening.

“He thinks that you might be angry at him over something.”

Kyuhyun muttered something under his breath that sounded like ‘idiot’.

Sungmin snorted. “I think the biggest idiot here is you.” Kyuhyun ignored him.

“I know!” Ryeowook’s eyes lit up. “Since we’re all going to the theme park on our day off tomorrow, you should take the initiative and get Yesung-hyung to go off with you alone! We’ll be splitting up into smaller groups anyway, so it should be easy.”

Kyuhyun said nothing.

Ryeowook headed towards the door. “Think about it. Just remember that you’re hurting both yourself and hyung by acting like you are now.” Kyuhyun just continued staring at the ceiling.

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“Let’s play!” Donghae cheered as the van arrived at the entrance of theme park. He jumped out of the vehicle and waited impatiently for the others to get down. Their manager handed them their tickets. Donghae immediately dragged Eunhyuk away.

“Remember to meet here at six!” Leeteuk called.

Eunhyuk waved to show that they had heard before they disappeared around the corner.

The leader turned towards the remaining members. “Be back by six, try to stick to your groups and don’t wander off alone.”

“Yes, mother,” teased Heechul before leaving with Siwon.

That left Ryeowook, Sungmin, Kyuhyun, Yesung and Leeteuk looking at each other. The first two made to leave as well, making signs of encouragement to Kyuhyun who looked uncomfortable. He opened his mouth, but…

“Let’s go, Leeteuk-hyung!” Yesung burst out, smiling.

The leader looked a little surprised. He glanced at Kyuhyun. “Are you su-”

“Come on, hyung!” The main vocal dragged the eldest away.

Leaving the youngest behind.

Sungmin and Ryeowook, who had lingered, couldn’t help but wince.

“You can go with them, you know,” Ryeowook suggested.

Kyuhyun chewed his lower lip, crest-fallen. He shook his head. “Let’s go, Sungmin-hyung, Ryeowook,” he looked up and forced a smile. It didn’t reach his eyes. “We’ll have fun together.” Without waiting for their replies, he started walking into the theme park.

The duo exchanged worried looks.

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“How about we go on that rollercoaster first?” Yesung asked the elder, pointing to the nearest one. When Leeteuk didn’t respond, he turned to find the leader staring at him in concern.

“Is something the matter, Yesung? I would have thought that you would want to spend time with Kyuhyun.”

Yesung sighed. He had wanted to avoid this conversation. “Well, Kyuhyun has been acting a little… strange recently. So I thought that I should give him some space.”

“Did the two of you quarrel?”

“That’s the problem. I have no idea what I did wrong. He just started treating me differently a few days ago.” Yesung expelled a heavy breath and then smiled brightly. “But we shouldn’t be talking about such depressing matters now. Let’s have a good time today!”

Leeteuk obediently followed Yesung to the rollercoaster he had pointed out earlier. But he still worried because he knew Yesung well enough to know something. That hadn’t been a real smile.

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Kyuhyun, Ryeowook and Sungmin collapsed onto a bench in the shade of a large tree. They had spent the last two hours hopping from one ride to another and were now exhausted. Sungmin and Ryeowook were tired but obviously delighted. It could be seen through the light in their eyes and their flushed cheeks. However, when they glanced at Kyuhyun, they sobered. There was simply something lifeless about the way the maknae was sprawled on his side of the bench.

Sungmin sighed and got up, pulling Ryeowook with him. “Kyuhyun-ah, Wook and I are going to get some drinks. You stay here, okay?”

Kyuhyun gave an almost imperceptible nod, one arm over his eyes as he leaned back on the bench.

When they were a distance away from maknae, Sungmin pulled out his cellphone. “Send a message to Teukie-hyung, telling him to come to the food stalls near the Tower of Terror. I’m calling Yesung-hyung.” As Ryeowook quickly typed out the text message, Sungmin dialed a number on his phone. “Hello, Yesung-hyung? Yeah, it’s Sungmin. How about we meet up? We’ll be waiting for you at a bench near the…”

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Yesung hung up and turned towards Leeteuk who stowed away his phone just in time. He had seen Ryeowook’s message and knew what Yesung was going to say.

“Sungmin asked us to meet up with them.”

Leeteuk nodded, smiling. “Sure, it’ll probably be more fun to go around with more people.”

“Let’s go, then.”

As they neared the agreed meet-up point, Leeteuk spotted the stalls Ryeowook mentioned in his message. “Yesung-ah, I’ll go get some snacks and meet you guys at the meeting place.”

“Hmm? Oh, I’ll go with you, then.”

Leeteuk was flustered but tried not to show it. “No, you better go meet up with them first. Ryeowook will worry if we take too long.”

“If you say so…” Yesung was skeptical but gave in. “The meeting place is a bench under a large tree near the lake. It should be just ahead. Call if you can’t find us.”

Leeteuk nodded and waved Yesung off. He headed towards the stall, where after a bit of searching he encountered Sungmin and Ryeowook. “What now?” he asked them.

“We spy.”

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When Yesung neared the tree, he didn’t see the expected three figures. For a moment, he wondered if he had arrived at the wrong place. Then he realized that the lone figure sitting on the bench was very familiar. He swallowed, suddenly nervous at the prospect of being alone with Kyuhyun after the situation of the previous week. He took a deep breath and approached the maknae. “Kyuhyun-ah.”

Kyuhyun visibly jerked. The arm covering his eyes fell to his side as he stared wide-eyed at Yesung. “Yesung-hyung?”

Yesung ignored the fact that the maknae was obviously extremely surprised to see him. “Where are Sungmin and Ryeowook? Sungmin told me to meet you guys here.”

“They went to get drinks. Where’s Leeteuk-hyung?”

“He went to get snacks…” His sentence trailed off. There was something fishy about the situation. “I’ll go look for them-”

Yesung was about to leave but a hand shot out and clasped around his wrist. He turned to look in surprise at the maknae. Kyuhyun’s gaze was lowered and his expression unreadable.

“Don’t go.”

The hand around his wrist moved to wrap around his smaller hand. Yesung allowed Kyuhyun to pull him to the bench. Even after he sat down, the younger didn’t let go of his hand. Instead, Kyuhyun laced his fingers with his own. The gesture felt intimate and Yesung blushed. Looking at Kyuhyun, he could see a heightened color on the younger’s cheeks as well.

“I love you.”

The straightforward confession was whispered so softly that Yesung was unsure whether he had really heard it or not. He could only stare, his eyes large, at Kyuhyun.

Kyuhyun continued staring at the ground for a while before he finally raised his head to look straight into Yesung’s eyes. “I love you, Jongwoon-hyung. I love you so much I don’t know what to do. I’ve been an idiot this past week, avoiding you, but I was just so confused. But I’ve finally come to terms with my feelings. I love you, Jongwoon-hyung, and I want to spend every moment of my life with you. This morning… I was hoping you would come and look for me first. I wanted you to choose me to spend the day with.”

Kyuhyun sounded so childlike and vulnerable that Yesung wanted to squeeze his cheeks. Yesung had loved the maknae for a long time. He had not expected the younger to return his feelings, content with staying by Kyuhyun’s side and spoiling him rotten. But now… it was like a dream come true. He could barely believe that he was actually hearing those words of love coming out from his beloved’s mouth.

Kyuhyun interpreted the silence as rejection and averted his eyes again. He loosened his grip on Yesung’s hand and started to pull away. “But you would probably rather spend more time with Leeteuk-hyung.”

Yesung caught hold of Kyuhyun’s hand again. “Kyuhyun-ah…” He drew the younger man closer. “Kyuhyun-ah…” He wrapped his arms around the younger, embracing him tenderly. He leaned closer to brush his lips over Kyuhyun’s, a sweetly chaste kiss. “Saranghae.” He felt rather than heard Kyuhyun’s sharp intake of breath. The maknae’s arms tentatively moved to wrap around his waist. Then, when Yesung tightened his hold on the younger, Kyuhyun dipped his head to rest on the elder’s shoulder. They held each other as if afraid to let go for fear of the other disappearing.

“Saranghae.”

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The three busybodies squatted behind several bushes not too far away, watching the progress with wide excited eyes. It was only when the new couple kissed that they turned away and allowed them their privacy.

“Well, it’s about time!” Sungmin announced, to which his two accomplices fervently agreed.

“What is about time?” a curious voice by Leeteuk’s ear almost made their hearts jump straight of their chest. To their relief, it was just Donghae and Eunhyuk, who had spotted them and were now crouched next to them.

Ryeowook grinned. “Jongwoon-hyung and Kyuhyunnie finally got together,” he said in a hushed yet gleeful tone.

“So one of them finally gained the guts to ask the other out?” A much less quiet voice cut into their excited whisperings.

“Heechul-hyung!” The five people on the ground waved frantically for him and Siwon to stand somewhere less conspicuous.

Heechul rolled his eyes. He opened his mouth to speak but was shushed by the others, who were still trying to convince him to hide. The sound of someone clearing his throat nearby made them freeze. Heechul smirked. “As I was trying to say, they know that you are here already. I daresay they knew even before I showed up.”

The members turned guiltily as one to look at Yesung and Kyuhyun, who were both sporting raised eyebrows. The intimidating effect, however, was somewhat ruined by their linked hands, which made them all grin.

Irritated by their overly gleeful expressions, Kyuhyun grumbled and pulled Yesung away. The elder laughed at the maknae’s embarrassed manner and sent the members a sheepish smile. He then turned so that he was walking next to Kyuhyun instead of being dragged, and planted a sweet kiss on the younger’s cheek. Kyuhyun turned so that their mouths met.

“Get a room!” Eunhyuk yelled.

“Just be back by six!”

“Hyung!” The members looked at their leader, scandalized.

Leeteuk looked innocent. “What?”

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