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[stelley]

I know i have been hurt,
For some reason,
That i cant explain.
For some reason,
That i do not know of,
I have had so much pain.

You smiled at me,
And it scared me to think why,
One day you act like you hate me,
The day you mada me cry.

We have had our problems,
And I really don't know what to say.
You WERE there for me,
Every single day.

I found out,
That it was me who wasnt there for you.
I think i wanted things to evolve around me,
I think you can agree with that too.

Everything you said to me was true,
I didn't think about it,
Until i truely lost you.

I know things can never ever be the same again,
We will probably never be good friends.

So I am going to except the fact,
I have changed for the worst.
And I am going to take this and change,
And not act as if i am cursed.

I am going to listen to what i did to you,
And be the perfect lil angel that i used to.

I am going to be,
Better then today.
I am going to be the sweet lil thing you corrupted,
remeber what happend that day?

It still makes me laugh to think of the things that were said,
Then when i told you what I did soon after,
I understand that you were scared to think that soon,
I could be dead.

I know that wont happen,
Since i am going to make myself change for the good.
I am going to be the person,
That for a while i never knew i could.

Thank You for staying with me,
Through the good and the bad.
You were truely the best friend,
Anyone could of ever had.

I am sorry that i lost you,
I blame it on myself.
I guess I was just kind of scared,
Like I had problems with my mental heath.

Now i am getting better,
I have tried to stay away.
So that i wouldn't upset you,
So that we could go on with our lives for another day.

So this is the last time that i try to apologize,
You don't have to believe my words,
Just look into my eyes.