I feel like shit this morning.
I had fun last night. Except that johannah was being a bitch. And saying mean things while I was lying down in the back of the car like, "now do you understand courtney's point of view? Look at this shit." Thank you johanna. You make me feel really good about myself. THANK YOU.
Weird stuff. It makes me sad. Cause I don't understand why it has to be this way. Maybe if I hadn't fucked up things would be different. Maybe if I wasn't such a fucking loser I would still be happy. I don't know what the fuck I did wrong. All I can do is be me, and apparently that's not what people want. Apparently it's never good enough. Apparently in order to be happy in this town you have to claim straightedge, not have any normal emotions, and OH! You have to keep your fucking mouth shut and never express yourself cause that would just be too much.
You must fit the mold that has been layed out for you.
FUCK YOU. EVERYONE. FUCK OFF.
I never knew you claimed it. You make me sick sometimes.
And you make me sad.
Weird stuff. It makes me sad. Cause I don't understand why it has to be this way. Maybe if I hadn't fucked up things would be different. Maybe if I wasn't such a fucking loser I would still be happy. I don't know what the fuck I did wrong. All I can do is be me, and apparently that's not what people want. Apparently it's never good enough. Apparently in order to be happy in this town you have to claim straightedge, not have any normal emotions, and OH! You have to keep your fucking mouth shut and never express yourself cause that would just be too much.
You must fit the mold that has been layed out for you.
FUCK YOU. EVERYONE. FUCK OFF.
I never knew you claimed it. You make me sick sometimes.
And you make me sad.