Not up to…
…expectations. I’m drained. Sad. Tired. I really don’t want to feel this way. I’m sorry I’m not perfect and that any perceived lack of perfection is immediate grounds to shit all over me. I’m selfish. All I do is love you. No way that I can make a mistake at any point or else. I’ll feel humiliated in public while eating , and yelled at in a car. Same shit my ex would do. I never wanted to experience this again, arguing during a meal. It makes me never want to eat with them again. I’m just really fucking sad. Left yesterday to go to Costco and didn’t kiss me goodbye for the first time. That crushed. And it told me this was coming up at some point. Idk man. I tried to be happy, but I’m just not a good enough person.