playing marbles with the full moon.
the other night was the eminem concert. it was only after we had gotten in the car with olivia that she said 'yeah, i was thinking that we could have all worn cranbrook shirts but i was already out the door when i thought of it...' it would have been the greatest thing in the world to be the overtly cranbrook at an eminem concert, but ah well. i had justin's navy tiger's cap with the detroit 'd' on it... it was too big so i was able to wear it at a little slant so it wouldn't be too man-ish. ah well. it was crazy thug fun, missy elliott and 50 cent were great and we danced most of the time, people-watched the rest of the time. eminem was amazing and the crowd got so into it... the best was when he went into the crowd on a platform that was in the middle of the field and did 'lose yourself' and '8 mile'...
we finally got home around 1:15 in the morning, so i'm exhausted. i woke up early this morning to get ready for the graduation parties... james' was really nice, i was able to see a lot of the guys i don't normally see like joey, jason, blair, steve, mark... and seeing james was really nice too. i came in with nick, who pulled up behind me just as i was getting out of my car, and i handed james the envelopes and he says 'yeah okay but i'd rather get a hug first...' it was great seeing his mom too, she's really warm towards me and gives me compliments. she also pointed out that there were wine coolers and mike's hard lemonades in the buckets of ice, although i didn't want to drink anything when i had to drive soon after.
i stayed for a couple of hours, but then i had to drive out to fenton for my cousin's graduation party. just an outdoor party in their backyard by the lake, lots of music and food and whatnot. the best news of the day was when i talked with my cousin anne who's going to be a senior up at michigan state this year and has a house she's sharing with another girl, and i asked her if there was any way that i could park my car at the house so it could be up there with me, and she said that it was an almost definite thing... the girl she's living with isn't bringing her car with her, so there's an extra spot. it'll be sooo nice not having to ask my parents to drive out and get me on the weekends, and plus i'll be able to drive where ever around east lansing. i'm really excited about it.
the one thing i hated about today is that i smelled your smell. and all i could do was breathe in repeatedly so i could smell it again and again and i hate myself for doing it. i can't help it, this need for the familiar smells. and even when i'm walking through a mall or a crowded place, someone will walk by and their perfume or cologne will remind me of someone or something or sometime... and it's the hardest memory to have because you cannot describe it to other people, or even yourself. it's like those songs where you sort of know the words in your head and can hear the music but it's impossible to have someone help you figure it out. and this smell came out of the blue, but i knew exactly what it was. i hate that it made my stomach hurt and my brain swim.
"-why must i be affected
by the words of those
who know not what they've said?
you're no longer someone i'll remember
but someone i'll regret-"
we finally got home around 1:15 in the morning, so i'm exhausted. i woke up early this morning to get ready for the graduation parties... james' was really nice, i was able to see a lot of the guys i don't normally see like joey, jason, blair, steve, mark... and seeing james was really nice too. i came in with nick, who pulled up behind me just as i was getting out of my car, and i handed james the envelopes and he says 'yeah okay but i'd rather get a hug first...' it was great seeing his mom too, she's really warm towards me and gives me compliments. she also pointed out that there were wine coolers and mike's hard lemonades in the buckets of ice, although i didn't want to drink anything when i had to drive soon after.
i stayed for a couple of hours, but then i had to drive out to fenton for my cousin's graduation party. just an outdoor party in their backyard by the lake, lots of music and food and whatnot. the best news of the day was when i talked with my cousin anne who's going to be a senior up at michigan state this year and has a house she's sharing with another girl, and i asked her if there was any way that i could park my car at the house so it could be up there with me, and she said that it was an almost definite thing... the girl she's living with isn't bringing her car with her, so there's an extra spot. it'll be sooo nice not having to ask my parents to drive out and get me on the weekends, and plus i'll be able to drive where ever around east lansing. i'm really excited about it.
the one thing i hated about today is that i smelled your smell. and all i could do was breathe in repeatedly so i could smell it again and again and i hate myself for doing it. i can't help it, this need for the familiar smells. and even when i'm walking through a mall or a crowded place, someone will walk by and their perfume or cologne will remind me of someone or something or sometime... and it's the hardest memory to have because you cannot describe it to other people, or even yourself. it's like those songs where you sort of know the words in your head and can hear the music but it's impossible to have someone help you figure it out. and this smell came out of the blue, but i knew exactly what it was. i hate that it made my stomach hurt and my brain swim.
"-why must i be affected
by the words of those
who know not what they've said?
you're no longer someone i'll remember
but someone i'll regret-"