so long sweet summer
well i'm home and summer's coming to a close. everyone's tryin to get their summer reading done, ordering books, covering books...(no one but me? okay), trying to fit in those last few parties, sleepovers, sleeping-in mornings, non-frantic days. it's been a good summer. a fair amount of bullshit and drama, but that's to be expected. in the grand finale of it all, i give this summer an 8.5 out of 10. it was interesting that's for sure. some things came unexpectedly. some good some bad but none without lessons and learning. i've tried to get something out of every experience this summer- i'm not shitting you. i figured this would be the last full summer with friends and family..most of all family. the last summer to spend lunch with taylor, drive her around, listen to music in my car, go to the pool together. the last summer to be expected to go on family vacations, which, while i know we're all thrilled to get away from family, there's comfort in the obligatory family vacation, because you know somehow or other- you'll have a good time. family is the only real thing you can rely on in life. so there's 13 days until school starts back up- business, college apps, homework, late nights, football games, parties, starbucks- the usual. but we all know this year will be different. this is the last one. the grand finale. we've got to make it good. get our priorities straight, our shit figured out, and our time well spent. because somehow i think we'll remember senior year the best...i remember telling someone one time that even if things didn't go well in the beginning- even if you got a bad reputation freshman year, had a bad episode at a party, backstabbed your best friend, or never went to a school dance- it's how you end things that you will remember most and be remembered for. i know i've done things to hurt other people, slacked off, procrastinated, hurt feelings, made bad decisions- but it's all in the past and hopefully somehow we'll just take this year to at least be civil to one another...to remember that it really isn't worth hating someone because really, you're only wasting your own time- your precious time. why put all that energy into hating someone when it won't matter next summer? just enjoy your own time...sometimes it's okay to be selfish when it comes to your life. i'm not saying this for me..i'm saying it for other people. anyway i'm done for now. and whoever said that shit in one of my other entries...if you feel the need to say anything else to me- my sn's hellahstella. because seriously- mature. really. if you don't like me i don't really give a shit, and you shouldn't waste your time trying to make me feel bad. so go ahead and say what you will but say it to me directly and not in some shitty "anonymous" post.
i'm out.
- stephanie
i'm out.
- stephanie