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so had a pretty bad week...
work last night went well, Jo came :) he came and bought me a drink
there was a bal last night in Jo's village (5 mins away by car not even) went there after work and Raphael was ther :/ ( the guy who was interested in me in the past)
I totally was trying not to see him cuz I had gained so much weight and stuff and last night I saw him kissing this girl who is either as fat or even FATTER than me....that totally changed my perspective lol
there's this girl who's pretty plain (ppl told me this as well) and at one point not only was Jo with her but Raphael too....was quite weird and I kinda freaked out....stupid stupid me...
My cousin and I are really huggy and stuff and she came and picked me up twirling me and jo was just standing there watching us and came and told me that we were adorable :)
during a slow song I was standing on my own and he came from across the room and was kinda weird and I could just feel that he was thinking of asking me to dance then our friend Jean-Philippe came and they started swaying back and forth and jo took me in his arms and jean-philippe kissed me on the head and I was like "thank you hunny" and jo kissed me on the cheek and I smiled and didnt say anthing and he was like "no thank you hunny for me?" and I told him that I would never wash my face again after that kiss jokingly (jeez if only u could still be clean without cleaning your face lol)
I sound like a 12 yr who never got kissed on the cheek beofre god...LOSER...
at the end of the night he introduced meto his godfather (that's a big thing here) and his godfather said he had very beautiful "amies" and he looked at me smiled, winked and said "I know."
ARGH... I really am a loser... hahaha
a friend of mine toldme that my job for this weekend was getting his cell # (when I changed numbers I didnt get his again) did it! :)
so maybe sometime I'll ask him if he wants to have a drink or something...
we'll see...
I wish I knew what was going on in his head.... *sigh* :/
How would you guys react???What would you think??
I really need input right now....
ok I'm gonna stop with my blah blah blah
work last night went well, Jo came :) he came and bought me a drink
there was a bal last night in Jo's village (5 mins away by car not even) went there after work and Raphael was ther :/ ( the guy who was interested in me in the past)
I totally was trying not to see him cuz I had gained so much weight and stuff and last night I saw him kissing this girl who is either as fat or even FATTER than me....that totally changed my perspective lol
there's this girl who's pretty plain (ppl told me this as well) and at one point not only was Jo with her but Raphael too....was quite weird and I kinda freaked out....stupid stupid me...
My cousin and I are really huggy and stuff and she came and picked me up twirling me and jo was just standing there watching us and came and told me that we were adorable :)
during a slow song I was standing on my own and he came from across the room and was kinda weird and I could just feel that he was thinking of asking me to dance then our friend Jean-Philippe came and they started swaying back and forth and jo took me in his arms and jean-philippe kissed me on the head and I was like "thank you hunny" and jo kissed me on the cheek and I smiled and didnt say anthing and he was like "no thank you hunny for me?" and I told him that I would never wash my face again after that kiss jokingly (jeez if only u could still be clean without cleaning your face lol)
I sound like a 12 yr who never got kissed on the cheek beofre god...LOSER...
at the end of the night he introduced meto his godfather (that's a big thing here) and his godfather said he had very beautiful "amies" and he looked at me smiled, winked and said "I know."
ARGH... I really am a loser... hahaha
a friend of mine toldme that my job for this weekend was getting his cell # (when I changed numbers I didnt get his again) did it! :)
so maybe sometime I'll ask him if he wants to have a drink or something...
we'll see...
I wish I knew what was going on in his head.... *sigh* :/
How would you guys react???What would you think??
I really need input right now....
ok I'm gonna stop with my blah blah blah