I’m gonna get it eventually
I would just like someone to stay with me when shit gets tough. We all need our space at times and I get that. There can’t be growth without communication and respect and how do you get that when people want to just throw it all out before asking what’s wrong even? How can I trust someone unless they’ve seen me be a horrible person and come back stronger and better. Someone who takes responsibility for their actions. I swear I am. I hate to make the same mistake twice. I just want to trust that someone will be there for me no matter what. Why is that difficult? I want to be that person for someone! If I’m failing, maybe that’s why. I hope I’m that someone for Matt. I know we are divorced, but he knows that doesn’t mean I’m not here for him. Sometimes I am more than his dads side at least. We’ve been through hell and back. He’s my forever trauma bond. I hope one day I deserve someone who doesn’t give up on me.