uneasy
sooo let's see.
Just finished my second week here, and I still feel iffy about... well, everything. I'm still trying to adapt to this climate, as well as the general environment. I miss clean water and air; maybe it's just hypochondria, but I've been feeling ill since I got here. I can't stay hydrated no matter how much I drink water, plus my lack of fresh fruits can't be helping much.
I love the school and the facilities that are here, but I can't help panicking over the tuition I'm/my parents are paying for fucking fundamental courses. And ironically, I've heard a lot of peers in my drawing classes say, "I can't draw". What the hell.
I suppose I'm a little homesick too, but not for my family as much as Oregon. I never thought I'd have this admiration for my home state, yet here I am dreaming of conifers and dry pine needles and McMenamin's art. I love Savannah as a city; it has its own mystique and vibe that I adore, so I'm torn between it and home.
I've mostly been a loner since I've been here. I occasionally hang out with people I meet, though I forget to ask for their numbers or last names, so I can't contact them for future gatherings. My roommate and I aren't bffs; we don't talk much and we do our own things. There have been a couple days where we didn't talk at all. I'm not as affected by this as I was before, but I see a lot of my friends connect with their roomies in a snap and it makes me think 'how'd that happen?'.
It isn't to say I haven't socialized since I've been here; I hung out with Liz and her roommates the other night, which was nice. We watched "Gray's Anatomy" and "Fast Forward", and I was surprised how much interest I took in them.
Yesterday Matt D. was talking to me on FB, and somehow the conversation took a turn to how I portray myself to others. He told me that I had a small following in high school; a lot of "budding artists" admired my work, and there were guys he knew that liked me, but they never approached me because I seemed "frigid" or "bitchy". I suppose I can see that, since I spent my entire senior year in a mire of isolation and frustration. Basically Matt told me to become more verbal and to watch my body language, which is funny to that this conversation happened after I read an article from Psychology Today about the very subject.
I'm hoping that I'll grow to love SCAD again. I found myself looking at the Digital Arts program at UO yesterday... it's all speculation. It'd definitely be cheaper to be there than here.
whatever, I'm a whiner
right now I need to read 30 more pages in my Governments book, and research about a third party that ran for presidential candidacy in 2008.
I was the only one in my Design class that didn't have to redesign anything in my lines project.
Just finished my second week here, and I still feel iffy about... well, everything. I'm still trying to adapt to this climate, as well as the general environment. I miss clean water and air; maybe it's just hypochondria, but I've been feeling ill since I got here. I can't stay hydrated no matter how much I drink water, plus my lack of fresh fruits can't be helping much.
I love the school and the facilities that are here, but I can't help panicking over the tuition I'm/my parents are paying for fucking fundamental courses. And ironically, I've heard a lot of peers in my drawing classes say, "I can't draw". What the hell.
I suppose I'm a little homesick too, but not for my family as much as Oregon. I never thought I'd have this admiration for my home state, yet here I am dreaming of conifers and dry pine needles and McMenamin's art. I love Savannah as a city; it has its own mystique and vibe that I adore, so I'm torn between it and home.
I've mostly been a loner since I've been here. I occasionally hang out with people I meet, though I forget to ask for their numbers or last names, so I can't contact them for future gatherings. My roommate and I aren't bffs; we don't talk much and we do our own things. There have been a couple days where we didn't talk at all. I'm not as affected by this as I was before, but I see a lot of my friends connect with their roomies in a snap and it makes me think 'how'd that happen?'.
It isn't to say I haven't socialized since I've been here; I hung out with Liz and her roommates the other night, which was nice. We watched "Gray's Anatomy" and "Fast Forward", and I was surprised how much interest I took in them.
Yesterday Matt D. was talking to me on FB, and somehow the conversation took a turn to how I portray myself to others. He told me that I had a small following in high school; a lot of "budding artists" admired my work, and there were guys he knew that liked me, but they never approached me because I seemed "frigid" or "bitchy". I suppose I can see that, since I spent my entire senior year in a mire of isolation and frustration. Basically Matt told me to become more verbal and to watch my body language, which is funny to that this conversation happened after I read an article from Psychology Today about the very subject.
I'm hoping that I'll grow to love SCAD again. I found myself looking at the Digital Arts program at UO yesterday... it's all speculation. It'd definitely be cheaper to be there than here.
whatever, I'm a whiner
right now I need to read 30 more pages in my Governments book, and research about a third party that ran for presidential candidacy in 2008.
I was the only one in my Design class that didn't have to redesign anything in my lines project.