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[stellamira]

I'm in the middle of season 2 of Dawson's Creek. I used to watch it when it was on tv, but I can't remember: Have if I always felt the urge to bash in Joey Potter's head? All she seems to do is break up with people because she needs to find herself first but an episode later she dates the next remotely interesting guy (or Dawson) who comes along. It's getting on my nerves. Not that Dawson is much different in that aspect, but he seems to get the teenage hormonal confusion across better.

My spider seems okay again! It's built a new web and has returned to its former lurking place to wait for food. So far I've managed to catch two (living) moths and tried to feed them to it but it wasn't interested.



Seven Wants

1. I want to lose weight. I was so much better when I came back from Peru, and then I started eating the German food again, I was responsible for how much was on my plate - and I had chocolate and cookies and ice cream again.
2. I want to take a sabbatical - or two - but I don't suppose my boss will let me. I've only been working at my current job for around two years - and it took one year to really get into the matter. Hiring someone just for the time I'd be away would hardly be worth it.
3. Money. Sounds very capitalistic, but so many things I'd like to do require much more money than I have or can ever expect to have.
4. Children. Two or three.
5. A partner. I'm not an unhappy single - I mean, some people expect you to cry yourself to sleep each night, and I definitely don't. And I don't exactly miss anything. But I see it like this: There's different people for different needs, your family for love and support, your friends for hugs, your colleagues for exchanging a friendly word with, the pizza service for food, and yourself for sexual pleasure. And some people are fine with spreading their needs out like that - or some don't even need all of those filled. But I want someone who combines that all.
6. I want to be a professional writer, if possible for books. But I have problems even heaving my stories over 2000 words and I write awfully slowly.
7. I want people to see who I am and not who I seem like. It takes me a long time to open up to people, sometimes years. It gets harder the bigger the group around me is and the longer they've been together. Sometimes there are people whom I just click with pretty fast - or people who were just persistently interested till I shared some more about myself. But a lot of the time you'll see me as the quiet girl in the corner, and that's not who I am.