someone to die for
why am i always unsatisfied? im completely unable to just "settle" for something. anything, really. i set the bar so high in every aspect of my life that its inevitable that i will wind up unhappy. i have trouble just accepting things the way they are, or things that come my way. im tired of never being satisfied with what i am and what i have. nothing is ever good enough for me to live with. im not saying that i am too good for things. its usually just that my expactations of myself are so high that nothing i do ever seems satisfactory to me. i just have trouble taking things as they are, and i am in a perpetual state of frustration. i dont know why i am this way, and i dont know how i can get out of it. my fear is that if i start lowering my expectations, i will only end up worse than i started out.
i just want to smile again.
i just want to smile again.