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how the FUCK can i get over this.
been almost 3 weeks.
everytime i get all cute or get crushes on other people, I FEEL GUILTY. i feel like i shouldn't be doing it. i feel like i'm doing something wrong. BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I'M WAITING FOR YOU. how can you have this control over me?
(it's easier if i can blame you for it)
i know i know i know that things are over right now. i know that. but man...i still want it so badly. i know that if there was any chance that we'd get back together, it'd have to be when/if you come back home for the summer, or when i move back to oakville august-ish. you have things to do now, work as a priority. i know this.
but if i know this...why do i still feel this way.
fighting for things will only make it worse. you see it as me bugging you about it. which is probably true. because in the rare times that i can step back and try to view the situation as an outsider, i can see how my banterings would be tiresome.
big fucking thumbs down.
been almost 3 weeks.
everytime i get all cute or get crushes on other people, I FEEL GUILTY. i feel like i shouldn't be doing it. i feel like i'm doing something wrong. BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I'M WAITING FOR YOU. how can you have this control over me?
(it's easier if i can blame you for it)
i know i know i know that things are over right now. i know that. but man...i still want it so badly. i know that if there was any chance that we'd get back together, it'd have to be when/if you come back home for the summer, or when i move back to oakville august-ish. you have things to do now, work as a priority. i know this.
but if i know this...why do i still feel this way.
fighting for things will only make it worse. you see it as me bugging you about it. which is probably true. because in the rare times that i can step back and try to view the situation as an outsider, i can see how my banterings would be tiresome.
big fucking thumbs down.