Outty like a belly button...
Ok, so I guess that little comment got some attention. Greg has a tendancy to say that something is "like" something. So that's why I said that. No, I do not have an outty just to clear that up. Anyways...I'm feeling kinda blah right now. I had a good weekend and stuff but now I'm feeling blah. I've had some issues in my mind lately that've caused me to have horrible dreams and not be able to sleep well at night. For instance, last night I woke up and I was having fits. I was angry and beating my bed and then at one point I was crying. Bad dreams. Its ridiculous. The past 2 or 3 days have been like this. The first day I dealt with it fine but it's continued to grow and screw me up. I just feel so much like a bum that it's killing me. I haven't had a subbing job yet so two days last week I went into the daycare and worked 4 hour shifts. I'm not making real money and I have a degree. I know that this would be a horrible year for me to be a 1st year teacher because of how serious Greg and I are. But I don't like not knowing when or where I'm going to work. It sucks. And I don't have a real income so I'm not saving any money for my future. I think that has a lot to do with why I'm feeling this way. Plus with me having all this extra time on my hands and Greg NOT having any extra time on his hands I can get bummed out about that. However, we did spend this whole weekend together and that was nice. I guess I'm just a freak sometimes.