just...great....
Time check....1:56 AM and I am still working on my film critque paper. Since, it has to be a medical film, of course I chose my personal favorite...神様のカルテ (God's Medical Records). It's very heart-warming and simply wonderful =)
But watching it at this time stabs me in the heart...nice timing...
Seems like my dream is out of my reach now. And just how much of a loser am I for not being able to get the chance to have TWO of my dreams....those which I only long for in my life...
I don't know what face to make, but my heart sure is in pain. It's so shocking and hurting that I cannot feel anything...nothing is projected in my face.
I don't know what to do...I am so tired of overthinking and having myself depressed in the end of the day. I am also sick of attempting and doing reckless and crazy things to my body, but to no avail...I am not that strong either to say the positive words my soul is very knowledgeable of. My soul knows wisdom, but doesn't always live it.
I feel betrayed, but I am not mad. In fact, part of me is thankful for giving me the chance to be who I am now.
I have no plans, but I guess I just have to move forward and take things one step at a time. There's no need to concern and worry oneself with the future. Besides, it's how you perform today which will make your tomorrow.
~uwaaaa I still feel empty....*sigh* I wonder what is in store for me.....