Hmm...
So I'm sitting here eating a baked potato and waiting to go to work when I think hmm, haven't check LJ in a while. With the situation I've been dealing with, maybe it's a good thing to get it written down...especially since barely anyone sees this anymore lol.
Brett and I are nearing the end of this stressful, chaotic thing we call a relationship. It makes me sad to think this may be one of the last days I can chill in this living room and eat a baked potato. We fight...a lot. But it's not all me, definitely not all me. What the fighting usually consists of is me talking to him while he's in a cranky mood, then him getting all pissy and getting mad at me for stupid things. He thinks we need to end it (well not end it, more like me move out and we take a "break,", but I know what that means), but I want to work through it. Either way, one person is going to be unhappy. I would've liked to compromise and I would move out and we would stay together...that way I'm not around as much...this place is my home now, it has been for over a year. I've considered us a family...a little family with a man, woman, and dog. It was nice to be able to belong to a family that I was a part in creating...but whatev. Maybe I'm just supposed to be a lesson learned for everyone I've dated. Maybe I'm not meant to fall in love and be happy. It always ends in some freak situation...it happens I guess. Addie and I are looking at Park Terrace apartments. At least I have a best friend who loves me...
Brett and I are nearing the end of this stressful, chaotic thing we call a relationship. It makes me sad to think this may be one of the last days I can chill in this living room and eat a baked potato. We fight...a lot. But it's not all me, definitely not all me. What the fighting usually consists of is me talking to him while he's in a cranky mood, then him getting all pissy and getting mad at me for stupid things. He thinks we need to end it (well not end it, more like me move out and we take a "break,", but I know what that means), but I want to work through it. Either way, one person is going to be unhappy. I would've liked to compromise and I would move out and we would stay together...that way I'm not around as much...this place is my home now, it has been for over a year. I've considered us a family...a little family with a man, woman, and dog. It was nice to be able to belong to a family that I was a part in creating...but whatev. Maybe I'm just supposed to be a lesson learned for everyone I've dated. Maybe I'm not meant to fall in love and be happy. It always ends in some freak situation...it happens I guess. Addie and I are looking at Park Terrace apartments. At least I have a best friend who loves me...