I don't want to be homely no more
I've had a makeover, kind of! I've been dying my hair from a box for a while now, and it's been looking kind of... yellow. And stringy. And gross. So I've been wanting to chop it off, but I wanted to lose weight first because when my hair is short and the rest of me is big, it looks stupid. So I've actually lost like 12 or so pounds, which is pretty surprising, since I've wanted to do that for a while (like since I gained the freshman 15) but I just haven't been able to, most likely because I like food and being stationary. So of course when I found I lost a couple jean sizes I ran out and bought a bunch of new clothes, and I just got my hair cut short and dyed back to my natural color (sort of, because I don't really know what my natural color is!). I think I look pretty different. I will try to post a picture or something sometime maybe probably not.
It's kind of a sad thing though because people often judge how your life is going by how good you look. I mean it's understandable in a way because that is really the only thing that they see, and definitely the first thing they notice. It's just weird, like no matter how I lost the weight, people get all excited about how my life is going. Someone said to me, "I wish I could come live with you and do what you do!" Huh? How do you know my life isn't an absolute mess or I haven't been in a depression and couldn't eat so I lost all this weight? Would you really want to come do that with me? It makes me think about that Lindsay Lohan, she's a teenage girl that went to the hospital for exhaustion or whatever, so she lost all this weight. She gets out and everyone tells her how great she looks. For not eating and putting herself in the hospital. So do you really think a teenage girl is going to try to gain the weight back after everyone telling her how great she looks, even though she's unhealthy? So in a way it kind of makes me sad that I get such a self-esteem boost from looking better, but I guess that's life. The fact is, I did it to feel better and I do, so what does that say about me?
I mean I know a lot of people lose weight because they want to be healthier and it makes their lifestyle better and it works and that's awesome. But sometimes, it's just not that way at all. It's part of the reason why that no-carb thing got completely out of hand. It became not so much about eating better or healthier, but losing weight fast. But to everyone around you, it looks the same, so you're a success. But what am I complaining about? Would I rather not get compliments? Or have people say I look unhappy? Of course not. I guess I just wish I could care less about what other people think. Good luck with that one.
It's kind of a sad thing though because people often judge how your life is going by how good you look. I mean it's understandable in a way because that is really the only thing that they see, and definitely the first thing they notice. It's just weird, like no matter how I lost the weight, people get all excited about how my life is going. Someone said to me, "I wish I could come live with you and do what you do!" Huh? How do you know my life isn't an absolute mess or I haven't been in a depression and couldn't eat so I lost all this weight? Would you really want to come do that with me? It makes me think about that Lindsay Lohan, she's a teenage girl that went to the hospital for exhaustion or whatever, so she lost all this weight. She gets out and everyone tells her how great she looks. For not eating and putting herself in the hospital. So do you really think a teenage girl is going to try to gain the weight back after everyone telling her how great she looks, even though she's unhealthy? So in a way it kind of makes me sad that I get such a self-esteem boost from looking better, but I guess that's life. The fact is, I did it to feel better and I do, so what does that say about me?
I mean I know a lot of people lose weight because they want to be healthier and it makes their lifestyle better and it works and that's awesome. But sometimes, it's just not that way at all. It's part of the reason why that no-carb thing got completely out of hand. It became not so much about eating better or healthier, but losing weight fast. But to everyone around you, it looks the same, so you're a success. But what am I complaining about? Would I rather not get compliments? Or have people say I look unhappy? Of course not. I guess I just wish I could care less about what other people think. Good luck with that one.