i can't stand it

[stefoni]

damn.

i'm pretty sure everything sucks right now.
in my livejournal, which is going to sound pathetic, is the only place i can talk and think clearly. whenever i just sit down and write, my words just flow like water.

we're supposed to go to the drive-in tonight.
we're supposed to get drunk tonight.
we're supposed to do alot of things.

there's so much going on right now.
i feel like i'm going to pop because i'm so stressed.
and there's never any down time.
i'm always completely stressed out.

work.
home.
mom's house.
when we're out.

stressed.

i'm sick of feeling this.
it's not because i'm single
and it's not because i don't think i'm pretty.

it's because i'm fucking lonely.
so freaking lonely.
i've lost the support system that i had with my family.
all my friends are rock...but i mean, they've got their own lives to worry about.

i'm sick of feeling like i'm infringing.
i want someone who's going to want to be around me all the time.

i want to feel needed.
*teardrops*