More HSP
I’m quite suffering from HSP lately. Not at home, but at work. Yesterday I was about to yell at everyone to fucking keep quiet, where I could restrain myself just closely. I figured in time that I would look hideous and where I could just easily move on, my co-workers will not easily forget an action like that. And this morning I was really getting insane, so many people were talking loud, one was hyperactive (I could kill him at that point, he was so hyperactive as well yesterday evening), I had many different things to arrange which all had to be arranged, well, *now*, I just said to myself that the next one bothering me I would fly at his throat to.
Luckily all that is over now. I’m claming down now, but those moments are really consuming energy. Last night “Miss Molko” and I talked about our participation at a LJ RPG and actually, last night I had my mind already made up, but wanted to tell the next day. And now? I changed my mind! Why give up on it when I haven’t really gotten into it already? What bothers me is that I don’t have an internet access of my own at home, so I could interact a bit more. Thing is, birthday is coming up! Luckily my character is not a party person, so that’s always a good excuse. But I just thought that I didn’t allowed myself to create the character, develop it. And I think I do should give it a chance. And I just had a quick look at my bankaccount, I maybe could afford something to divert the ADSL connection, that'll be great!
Hmmm, I better start doing my work again, otherwise I get another HSP session because there is still so much to do (which in theory only takes max 30 minutes…)
Luckily all that is over now. I’m claming down now, but those moments are really consuming energy. Last night “Miss Molko” and I talked about our participation at a LJ RPG and actually, last night I had my mind already made up, but wanted to tell the next day. And now? I changed my mind! Why give up on it when I haven’t really gotten into it already? What bothers me is that I don’t have an internet access of my own at home, so I could interact a bit more. Thing is, birthday is coming up! Luckily my character is not a party person, so that’s always a good excuse. But I just thought that I didn’t allowed myself to create the character, develop it. And I think I do should give it a chance. And I just had a quick look at my bankaccount, I maybe could afford something to divert the ADSL connection, that'll be great!
Hmmm, I better start doing my work again, otherwise I get another HSP session because there is still so much to do (which in theory only takes max 30 minutes…)