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..Is it just me or is lj increasingly slow?
sigh perhaps it is becoming a thing of the past.
So I'm here, awaiting routine and chaos. University starts wednesday, orientation tomorrow.
If there's ever a time to be unsure of every aspect of your life, to doubt who you are, who others are, and to waver in ever decision lying at your feet - it's probably not today. But that's alright, there's nothing I can do about it now anyways. I've got the books, the shiny new backpack, some clothes, some pens, and hopefully the brains. I've got the 'grown-up' life with the serious boyfriend, the part time job, the legal ID and the power to fail or succeed. I'm trying to shake the feeling of being an overgrown 14 year old. I'm worried and wish I was smarter.
I'm breathing - which is all Scott says that counts. I wonder if it will count if time passes and he leaves my life one day. To be entirely alone is a concept that I am on the verge of as my friends also continue into their new found lives and we all leave behind the binds loosely tied by archaic high school necessity.
No wonder they make movies out of this.
No wonder it's only hours away.
Pass or fail.
sigh perhaps it is becoming a thing of the past.
So I'm here, awaiting routine and chaos. University starts wednesday, orientation tomorrow.
If there's ever a time to be unsure of every aspect of your life, to doubt who you are, who others are, and to waver in ever decision lying at your feet - it's probably not today. But that's alright, there's nothing I can do about it now anyways. I've got the books, the shiny new backpack, some clothes, some pens, and hopefully the brains. I've got the 'grown-up' life with the serious boyfriend, the part time job, the legal ID and the power to fail or succeed. I'm trying to shake the feeling of being an overgrown 14 year old. I'm worried and wish I was smarter.
I'm breathing - which is all Scott says that counts. I wonder if it will count if time passes and he leaves my life one day. To be entirely alone is a concept that I am on the verge of as my friends also continue into their new found lives and we all leave behind the binds loosely tied by archaic high school necessity.
No wonder they make movies out of this.
No wonder it's only hours away.
Pass or fail.