Things are pretty OK today...
I'm feeling OK today.
I had a pretty rough week. I had to be there for a friend during a really difficult time, so I ended up missing out on a lot of my own life.
And I was feeling a little down because it seemed like nobody really cared that I wasn't around much.
It's kinda hard to be consoling someone all week, trying to be the strong one when I really just wanted to cry. But, hey, you gotta do what you gotta do, right? Right.
But it still kinda stung a bit to not be welcomed back by my friends, to not be invited to hang out, to not even be hugged or offered a word or two of sympathy...but I guess I'm not one to need or ask for that, really.
I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster; having to deal with a tragic loss, meeting and helping to take care of people, consoling my friend and his family, along with trying to get my own life in order really takes a lot out of a girl. I figured it was just because I had such an exhausting week that I felt that way, so I didn't let it bother me too much. I just feel kind of like people don't really care as much about me as I care about them; I feel kind of unwanted, unnecessary to a lot of people.
I'm not really sure what I expected, but I guess maybe it was too much. Maybe I just expected people to read my mind and know that I was really distraught and upset for the whole week and I needed a little bit of my own support. I kind of figured that might be more obvious. Oh well.
But, today I'm feeling better, I am cleaning (which my Mommy always told me-and I found it to be true-is very therapeutic) and catching up on some homework (not quite so therapeutic, but it's gotta be done).
Yeah, I am feeling better, heck, I'm feeling pretty darn OK today!
...and I hope it lasts!!
I had a pretty rough week. I had to be there for a friend during a really difficult time, so I ended up missing out on a lot of my own life.
And I was feeling a little down because it seemed like nobody really cared that I wasn't around much.
It's kinda hard to be consoling someone all week, trying to be the strong one when I really just wanted to cry. But, hey, you gotta do what you gotta do, right? Right.
But it still kinda stung a bit to not be welcomed back by my friends, to not be invited to hang out, to not even be hugged or offered a word or two of sympathy...but I guess I'm not one to need or ask for that, really.
I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster; having to deal with a tragic loss, meeting and helping to take care of people, consoling my friend and his family, along with trying to get my own life in order really takes a lot out of a girl. I figured it was just because I had such an exhausting week that I felt that way, so I didn't let it bother me too much. I just feel kind of like people don't really care as much about me as I care about them; I feel kind of unwanted, unnecessary to a lot of people.
I'm not really sure what I expected, but I guess maybe it was too much. Maybe I just expected people to read my mind and know that I was really distraught and upset for the whole week and I needed a little bit of my own support. I kind of figured that might be more obvious. Oh well.
But, today I'm feeling better, I am cleaning (which my Mommy always told me-and I found it to be true-is very therapeutic) and catching up on some homework (not quite so therapeutic, but it's gotta be done).
Yeah, I am feeling better, heck, I'm feeling pretty darn OK today!
...and I hope it lasts!!