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I had a bad dream last night. I was actually incredibly sad for the first time in a while... like a really long time. I don't know what my dream meant, and i couldn't even tell you what happened.. it's one of those things you remember for 5 minutes while your sitting in bed crying at 4am, and then you foget. i just knew it hurt. A part of me is hurting, hurting a lot right now. I haven't told anyone. There has been no one to tell. I'm so happy steves coming home.
I'm stuck here wondering what happened? Not a lot of time flew by and yet it feels like we're worlds away from each other. What happened? Did i do something to you? I have no clue. I don't know what to think anymore. I had my life set. a plan. a destination a whole future. And it didnt happen. And i've been handling it so well. but at times i can't bear to listen. why me? do i deserve this? Is this fate? it hurts because i wanted something so bad i was trying so hard to make it happen. so much hope into something, thats so important. it's a let down. disappointing. theres a part of my life right now that doesn't make sense to me. i need to talk to youuuuu.
Other then that, today was an alright day. the weather was crappy, which didnt help. i brought in most of my IB art stuff which was good times. still have a few peices left to bring in... nervous. wishing april was over. such a hectic month. on my cell schedule.. i have 3 days that DONT have reminders on them haha. only 3! jesus. ridiculous.
last year i had a good end of april. :)
I'm stuck here wondering what happened? Not a lot of time flew by and yet it feels like we're worlds away from each other. What happened? Did i do something to you? I have no clue. I don't know what to think anymore. I had my life set. a plan. a destination a whole future. And it didnt happen. And i've been handling it so well. but at times i can't bear to listen. why me? do i deserve this? Is this fate? it hurts because i wanted something so bad i was trying so hard to make it happen. so much hope into something, thats so important. it's a let down. disappointing. theres a part of my life right now that doesn't make sense to me. i need to talk to youuuuu.
Other then that, today was an alright day. the weather was crappy, which didnt help. i brought in most of my IB art stuff which was good times. still have a few peices left to bring in... nervous. wishing april was over. such a hectic month. on my cell schedule.. i have 3 days that DONT have reminders on them haha. only 3! jesus. ridiculous.
last year i had a good end of april. :)