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Well, I'm happy to say that I'm not suicidal anymore. Boy was that a rough one to get out of. But I'm definitely a lot happier with life and myself to know I won't sink into that again.
Since I broke up with Luis a year ago(he cheated), I've managed to get my ass back into college and in shape. Not much else has changed.... well, that's a lie. I moved waaay across town, switched jobs and started trying to make a new round of friends.
It feels so liberating knowing I have only myself to take care of. I can get my hair done, I can buy clothes for myself, I can go out from time to time and treat myself to things and get things I need. The stress isn't anywhere near what it used to be. At one point my skin was all broken out, my hair was falling out, and I was always sick. Nope. No more of that. The only thing I'm stressing over now is my sociology test next Sunday but I'm pretty sure I'm going to nail that motherfucker! :)
Despite my tight budget I'm still able to care for Gizmo on my own. God, that is super relieving! I can still get him good medical care when he needs it and good food, toys, etc. I was hoping I wouldn't have to rely on Luis for any money so it's good to know I still dont. :)
I guess the only thing on my mind right now is the start of the holiday season. I'm not sure I'll have anyone to spend Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year's with. Friends already have plans with their families so I don't really have much else to do. I guess I can always order out a pizza and watch movies with Gizmo but I can't deny to myself that the thought of spending the holidays without anyone who loves me is pretty damn painful. School will be out the majority of the time so unfortunately, I can't keep myself busy with that lol.
Who knows though. Things are slowly starting to look up. I shouldn't let the next 2 1/2 months hold me back.
I can only continue to give my life meaning.
Since I broke up with Luis a year ago(he cheated), I've managed to get my ass back into college and in shape. Not much else has changed.... well, that's a lie. I moved waaay across town, switched jobs and started trying to make a new round of friends.
It feels so liberating knowing I have only myself to take care of. I can get my hair done, I can buy clothes for myself, I can go out from time to time and treat myself to things and get things I need. The stress isn't anywhere near what it used to be. At one point my skin was all broken out, my hair was falling out, and I was always sick. Nope. No more of that. The only thing I'm stressing over now is my sociology test next Sunday but I'm pretty sure I'm going to nail that motherfucker! :)
Despite my tight budget I'm still able to care for Gizmo on my own. God, that is super relieving! I can still get him good medical care when he needs it and good food, toys, etc. I was hoping I wouldn't have to rely on Luis for any money so it's good to know I still dont. :)
I guess the only thing on my mind right now is the start of the holiday season. I'm not sure I'll have anyone to spend Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year's with. Friends already have plans with their families so I don't really have much else to do. I guess I can always order out a pizza and watch movies with Gizmo but I can't deny to myself that the thought of spending the holidays without anyone who loves me is pretty damn painful. School will be out the majority of the time so unfortunately, I can't keep myself busy with that lol.
Who knows though. Things are slowly starting to look up. I shouldn't let the next 2 1/2 months hold me back.
I can only continue to give my life meaning.