sadness.....
well, even though I haven't posted in a while, I think now is the time to do so....
I have just been crying and crying all weekend...Im so upset :(
Here's the story. Matt came up from Tuscaloosa to stay in B-ham for his break b4 he had to go back to school. So we went almost everyday together for like a couple of weeks. We have just been hanging, going different places, getting drunk...just having fun. And today it hit me, b/c he left to go back down to T-town, and not to mention Im not taking it very well at all. I thought I would be okay but a little sad. But no thats not the case.... I have been ballin' my fucking eyes out.My eyes feel like fucking sandpaper and they are swollen as shit. Im probably taking it to far. I mean we went to like waffle house like every night at 2 in the morning and just sat there, smoked sum ciggy's, made friends w/ the waffle house people, just enjoying every moment!
I didnt think it would affect much as it has, but it did. And I cant help it. Its hard when your w/ someone every day, and knowing me I have a bad problem w/ attachment.... I mean I know I will see him soon, and we talk everyday... Its just hard to accept, I guess I will give it a while...
I mean it just hurts to see him go back. I really like him alot and just love him to death. I care so much about him, He is such a great person... I couldnt ask for a better person like him to come into my life. I wouldnt replace him for the world. Hopefully one day things will work out b/w me and him... But Im leaving it in gods hands and time will tell...!(crossing my fingers)
Im going to quit typing, b4 I get upset again... so Im out.
much love- stefanie
I have just been crying and crying all weekend...Im so upset :(
Here's the story. Matt came up from Tuscaloosa to stay in B-ham for his break b4 he had to go back to school. So we went almost everyday together for like a couple of weeks. We have just been hanging, going different places, getting drunk...just having fun. And today it hit me, b/c he left to go back down to T-town, and not to mention Im not taking it very well at all. I thought I would be okay but a little sad. But no thats not the case.... I have been ballin' my fucking eyes out.My eyes feel like fucking sandpaper and they are swollen as shit. Im probably taking it to far. I mean we went to like waffle house like every night at 2 in the morning and just sat there, smoked sum ciggy's, made friends w/ the waffle house people, just enjoying every moment!
I didnt think it would affect much as it has, but it did. And I cant help it. Its hard when your w/ someone every day, and knowing me I have a bad problem w/ attachment.... I mean I know I will see him soon, and we talk everyday... Its just hard to accept, I guess I will give it a while...
I mean it just hurts to see him go back. I really like him alot and just love him to death. I care so much about him, He is such a great person... I couldnt ask for a better person like him to come into my life. I wouldnt replace him for the world. Hopefully one day things will work out b/w me and him... But Im leaving it in gods hands and time will tell...!(crossing my fingers)
Im going to quit typing, b4 I get upset again... so Im out.
much love- stefanie