Wanting the sweet
Yesterday and today were almost as busy as Monday, so I didn't have a lot of idle time thinking about food or wandering into the kitchen browsing the cabinets and fridge. However, about mid-afternoon I realized I wanted something sweet. It went away because I found some task to do to distract me, but is it really gone?
Here are some thoughts from Days 3-4:
- The desire for something sweet was in parallel with my mental excuse center telling me things like, "Well, it's December, it's the season to eat tasty treats." Even worse was, "You've done a great job avoiding sugar since Saturday, you deserve a break."
- Accompanying that excuse center seems to be something typically associated with addiction: completely forgetting the feeling that led me to wanting to make this change to start with. My mind knows, but my body feels like it has "recovered" from how it felt on Sunday, so the "need for sweet" no longer conjures the negative response it had on Day 1.
I've said it before, and I stand by it: Day 1 is always the easiest. It's Days 3-14 or so where the real struggle lies. - During this recovery week, the sleepy creeps up on me. I may think you have everything going well, but then I sit still watching a video and nod off unexpectedly fast, after which I'm no good to watch more and have to stop to rest.
- My skin has stared clearing up, but I'm still bloated. I attribute the bloating to not yet going back to completely avoiding dairy and wheat. That needs to happen, too.
- There is a smoothie I make once a day (if I have the ingredients for it and need something filling in my belly) with no added sweeteners, but with a lot of banana in it. That's not against the rules, but I wonder if I'm doing myself a disservice because of how sweet the bananas are.
In unrelated news, I recovered unexpectedly quick from my gym trip yesterday, and I'm even noticing that my hip where I've had the PT is even way better than it has been across the last few months. Yay progress! \o/