"I wear gods name up by my wrist but you might as well tear my skin off..."
"...She's letting go convictions, to release the ghost inside
To release all the suffering of a cross and a girl I say
I love you way too much, so I'll say I hate you for tonight."
So, I'm coming home. It's been fun and all that jazz, but let's face it.. marriage is not exactly my cup of tea quite just yet. Maybe in like 10 years. I'm young & I wanna experience everything life has to offer. Or at least most of it, & it's kind of hard when you're chained to someone else who is dragging you through their life. Not quite your own. It's not that I'm quitting, I'm just letting what needs to be, be. I love him, yes, from the moment I saw him I Loved him, and I will always love him. But, Matt & I have never been right to begin with. And over the years we've become even more not right for eachother. We changed too drastically when he went to boot camp. Went entirely seperate ways & we'll never go back because we are both too stubborn to change our ways.
Matt isn't the person I want to be with my whole life. Dating, I've gotten used to certain qualities in people that I've found I really enjoyed. Matt hardly has any of them. Of course I'm sad. I think deep down I will always be sad about this. But sometimes you got to be sad in order to be happy again. And I haven't been happy for awhile..
See you all soon.
To release all the suffering of a cross and a girl I say
I love you way too much, so I'll say I hate you for tonight."
So, I'm coming home. It's been fun and all that jazz, but let's face it.. marriage is not exactly my cup of tea quite just yet. Maybe in like 10 years. I'm young & I wanna experience everything life has to offer. Or at least most of it, & it's kind of hard when you're chained to someone else who is dragging you through their life. Not quite your own. It's not that I'm quitting, I'm just letting what needs to be, be. I love him, yes, from the moment I saw him I Loved him, and I will always love him. But, Matt & I have never been right to begin with. And over the years we've become even more not right for eachother. We changed too drastically when he went to boot camp. Went entirely seperate ways & we'll never go back because we are both too stubborn to change our ways.
Matt isn't the person I want to be with my whole life. Dating, I've gotten used to certain qualities in people that I've found I really enjoyed. Matt hardly has any of them. Of course I'm sad. I think deep down I will always be sad about this. But sometimes you got to be sad in order to be happy again. And I haven't been happy for awhile..
See you all soon.