Short Update
So I'm not quite as broken as I was on Friday. But I still feel bad. I'm just not fitting in here. And every time I try, some bad thing happens to make me feel like sulking into my hole again. I keep asking myself why I chose Athens, if Athens was right for me, and trying to logically explain to myself that Athens was the best choice, but now, I just can't. I don't think Athens was the best choice. I don't like this country! It's backwards--I'm posting this on a WINDOWS 2000 P.O.S. because the internet on campus, which is supposed to be really good, SUCKS, and now doesn't even WORK. Also, all the stupid kids on the streets try and act cool and listen to American music that was popular in the mid 90s, and wear ugly mullets and smoke! UGH! Get with the rest of the world, Athens! And this place is so dirty! FUCK! I hate how much shit there is all over the place! I hate Modern Greece, and it's dampering my study of Ancient Greece! Ughh...I can't keep telling myself I'm doing what I want, because I'm not sure...now the only thing keeping me here is the knowledge that if I leave before May, I WILL be a failure, whereas if I stay, I give an opportunity for this to stop sucking major cock. Btw, I guess a Europe trip is out of the question; I'm going to take the lack of replies to my post where I gave suggestions as a "nobody gives a shit" response, so I guess it's just my folks. But that's ok. You guys shouldn't take a Europe trip. Europeans suck. At least, Greeks do.