you keep bending till i break.

[stefanee]

yesterday my dad and some guy took apart our windows and re-did my bathroom. and my mom told me we're getting a house built. i told her i better have a full basement to myself or im not going anywhere. today im going to hang out with squeek, kory, and marlana! hopefully this will make my week alot better cause i deff. need to get out and get my mind off things. boyfriends suck.

i don't know what to do, i just know that i don't want to throw it all away even though i should.


he drowns in his dreams
an exquisite extreme i know
he's as damned as he seems
and more heaven than a heart could hold
and if i try to save him
my whole world would cave in
it just isn't right, it just isn't right

and i don't know
i don't know what he's after
but he's so beautiful
he's such a beautiful disaster
and if i could hold on
through the tears and the laughter
would it be beautiful
or just a beautiful disaster

he's magic and myth
as strong as what i believe
a tragedy with more damage then a soul should see
and do i try to change him
so hard not to blame him
hold me tight, hold me tight

and i don't know
i don't know what he's after
but he's so beautiful
he's such a beautiful disaster
and if i could hold on
through the tears and the laughter
would it be beautiful
or just a beautiful disaster

i'm longing for love and the logical
but he's only happy hysterical
i'm searching for some kind of miracle
waited so long, so long
he's soft to the touch
and frayed at the end he breaks
he's never enough
and still he's more than i can take

and i don't know
i don't know what he's after
but he's so beautiful
he's such a beautiful disaster
and if i could hold on
through the tears and the laughter
would it be beautiful
or just a beautiful disaster