i feel jumbled
i've been thinking, and i can't decide if hopelessness or jealousness is worse. what do you think? they are both pretty darn harsh, but for some reason i feel like jealousy gets to me more. it just eats away at you.. i think i'm just an extra jealous person. but, on the other hand, hopelessness is so discouraging. Having them both at the same time is double the pain though.
this vacation needs to take a dramatic upswing- quickly, because as of right now i've been thinking way too much, and that's never a good thing. ever think so much that suddenly the thoughts start to cancel out and then bam you're staring into the distance for like 5 minutes until you realize what you've been doing and then it starts all over again? well, yeah that's what been going on with me lately.
it seems that i'm way behind on my dentist app.-- 2 years-- cavities here we come. and, equally behind on my oral surgeon app, tambien. greattttt. i'm praying that my ameloblastoma has not sprung up again to eat away at my jaw like a couple years ago. let that be a lesson to you, go to the dentists and have those xrays done, because if not, well you could have your jaw reconstructed! that's how close it came for me except all they had to do was extract the wonderful cyst from my jaw while I was passed out and then knock me up on painkillers for a month while my jaw regrew. such a breeze. it's also equally great that i happened to have one of the most rare cysts you could possibly have, so that i need to go to the oral surgeons for the next 20 years for 100 buck xrays. so rare that the surgeon has only treated one other case in his 30 yr practice. i'm so lucky huh?
something completely outrageously spontaneous needs to happen.
adios.
this vacation needs to take a dramatic upswing- quickly, because as of right now i've been thinking way too much, and that's never a good thing. ever think so much that suddenly the thoughts start to cancel out and then bam you're staring into the distance for like 5 minutes until you realize what you've been doing and then it starts all over again? well, yeah that's what been going on with me lately.
it seems that i'm way behind on my dentist app.-- 2 years-- cavities here we come. and, equally behind on my oral surgeon app, tambien. greattttt. i'm praying that my ameloblastoma has not sprung up again to eat away at my jaw like a couple years ago. let that be a lesson to you, go to the dentists and have those xrays done, because if not, well you could have your jaw reconstructed! that's how close it came for me except all they had to do was extract the wonderful cyst from my jaw while I was passed out and then knock me up on painkillers for a month while my jaw regrew. such a breeze. it's also equally great that i happened to have one of the most rare cysts you could possibly have, so that i need to go to the oral surgeons for the next 20 years for 100 buck xrays. so rare that the surgeon has only treated one other case in his 30 yr practice. i'm so lucky huh?
something completely outrageously spontaneous needs to happen.
adios.