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[stefan_d]

My brother Vince called today to harass talk to me; I'm not sure why he keeps callin'. I mean, okay I thought for a while last summer that we could be friends again, but it didn't work out. Can you ever really leave the past behind

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[stefan_d]

"If they're keeping you from sleepin', sounds like they might be kind of a big deal," I say. I think about lightin' up another cigarette and then decide not to. I look up at the sky, seein' the first traces of stars as dusk falls. "I won't pry if you don't wanna talk about it, though."

[stefan_d]

How fuckin' awful. No wonder she can't sleep.

"It doesn't seem fair that you should have to dream about it over and over," I say softly. "I'm sorry, Maddie." I realize I still haven't moved my hand from her shoulder, but she doesn't seem to mind, so maybe it's okay.

[stefan_d]

"Yeah, listen to you," I say. "Since I'm forbidden to throw myself over, we gotta stop being depressing. Think about happy things. Like--." I pause, my eyes searchin' the sky.

"Look." I lean close, my cheek next to hers as I point at a string of stars that have emerged in the darkened sky. "Doesn't that look just like... a harp, or maybe somebody's tennis shoe?"

[stefan_d]

I chuckle. "I've been told I was deranged before," I say. "No, see, the outline's kinda harp-shaped. Or it could be a shoe turned on its side." I'm pullin' this stuff out of my ass to try and make her smile. It's kinda fun.

[stefan_d]

"Wait," I say, pretendin' to squint at the sky. "Never mind, I guess it's just a buncha stars after all. My bad." I glance at her, smiling.

[stefan_d]

I snicker. That's not really funny, but it kinda is. "Yeah, I guess so," I say, gettin' to my feet to start the long walk back down.