Oh Wheaties how I miss you!
There's so much going on in my mind this weekend...
I've been away from Wheaton barely 30 hours now, and I'm so ready to go back...This weekend has made me realize how much I love Wheaton. It's good tho, now I won't take it for granted. It was great seeing some of my homies tho. Don't get me wrong, it's not that i don't like the people out here, it's just that I know Wheaton is so where I belong right now. It's incredible. I am so thankful to God for putting me there. He's taught me so much in the 2 weeks Iv'e been there, I can't imagine what will happen in 4 years...that is, if I graduate from Wheaton. I may have to transfer later if I can't get enough money. But I'm cool w/ whatever. I know God will get me where I need to be.
I'm hurting so much right now for those who haven't found the amazingly fulfilling joy that I have in Christ. I wish everyone could know the amazing things I experience through God. But I know that not everyone will. I've had a lot of debates on Calvinism vs. Arminianism (sp?) at Wheaton, and it's really opened my eyes to things. I've never really thought much about free will vs. God's choice until I read Romans 9 then started talking to all these hard core calvinists, and now i'm starting to change my thinking about things. I really do believe that God chooses certain people. But what I can't get is...why doesn't he choose everyone? Or why doens' the choose more people? The Bible says that narrow is the gate that leads to eternal life, and wide is the gate that leads to destruction. Why does it have to be that way? It makes me so sad. And on top of that, I'm reading Ezekiel, which talks all about how everyone is so evil and they're going to pay for their evilness. So sad.
Anyway, sorry about the depressing topic in the lj tonight, but all this has been weighing on my mind. I guess instead of focusing on that, I should be joyful and thankful that I have found a life that is abundant and awesome.
Today was cool. Hung out with Olivia some this afternoon which was fun. She's always so cool to hang out with. Then, for the first time ever, I went to a movie w/ my parents and another couple in our church that they're friends with. I've never done a social thing w/ my rents that wasn't a "family thing." Well, except when I saw Kill Bill with my dad. Haha. We saw The Borne Supremacy which was amazing! Then tonight I went on a walk with my brother (and my doggie) and we had a really good talk. I'm getting a lot closer with my family this year, and was starting to last year too, so that's really cool. I'm glad I got closer to them before actually leaving for college, but that I am still getting more close. I really like my brother...we get along so well, he's so cool, and he's fun to be around. What more could I ask for? It's amazing how much you can influence the way a person thinks. I'm realizing how much all my opinionated ideas presented at the dinner table have gotten to my brother. It's kinda crazy. I should be more careful the attitudes I exert to people around me, because I don't want to exert any bad ideas, and I definately get those at times!
Man, this is such a rambly lj posting. I felt like I had so much more going on in my mind, but I've been thinking about it so much, it's turning into mush. I can't fully express my emotions and thoughts very well in words. Well, I'm stopping here so not to waste your time or mine any longer.
Peace out~ Stephanie
I've been away from Wheaton barely 30 hours now, and I'm so ready to go back...This weekend has made me realize how much I love Wheaton. It's good tho, now I won't take it for granted. It was great seeing some of my homies tho. Don't get me wrong, it's not that i don't like the people out here, it's just that I know Wheaton is so where I belong right now. It's incredible. I am so thankful to God for putting me there. He's taught me so much in the 2 weeks Iv'e been there, I can't imagine what will happen in 4 years...that is, if I graduate from Wheaton. I may have to transfer later if I can't get enough money. But I'm cool w/ whatever. I know God will get me where I need to be.
I'm hurting so much right now for those who haven't found the amazingly fulfilling joy that I have in Christ. I wish everyone could know the amazing things I experience through God. But I know that not everyone will. I've had a lot of debates on Calvinism vs. Arminianism (sp?) at Wheaton, and it's really opened my eyes to things. I've never really thought much about free will vs. God's choice until I read Romans 9 then started talking to all these hard core calvinists, and now i'm starting to change my thinking about things. I really do believe that God chooses certain people. But what I can't get is...why doesn't he choose everyone? Or why doens' the choose more people? The Bible says that narrow is the gate that leads to eternal life, and wide is the gate that leads to destruction. Why does it have to be that way? It makes me so sad. And on top of that, I'm reading Ezekiel, which talks all about how everyone is so evil and they're going to pay for their evilness. So sad.
Anyway, sorry about the depressing topic in the lj tonight, but all this has been weighing on my mind. I guess instead of focusing on that, I should be joyful and thankful that I have found a life that is abundant and awesome.
Today was cool. Hung out with Olivia some this afternoon which was fun. She's always so cool to hang out with. Then, for the first time ever, I went to a movie w/ my parents and another couple in our church that they're friends with. I've never done a social thing w/ my rents that wasn't a "family thing." Well, except when I saw Kill Bill with my dad. Haha. We saw The Borne Supremacy which was amazing! Then tonight I went on a walk with my brother (and my doggie) and we had a really good talk. I'm getting a lot closer with my family this year, and was starting to last year too, so that's really cool. I'm glad I got closer to them before actually leaving for college, but that I am still getting more close. I really like my brother...we get along so well, he's so cool, and he's fun to be around. What more could I ask for? It's amazing how much you can influence the way a person thinks. I'm realizing how much all my opinionated ideas presented at the dinner table have gotten to my brother. It's kinda crazy. I should be more careful the attitudes I exert to people around me, because I don't want to exert any bad ideas, and I definately get those at times!
Man, this is such a rambly lj posting. I felt like I had so much more going on in my mind, but I've been thinking about it so much, it's turning into mush. I can't fully express my emotions and thoughts very well in words. Well, I'm stopping here so not to waste your time or mine any longer.
Peace out~ Stephanie