May 28, 2005 02:05
shake my hand when i see you all for the last time {from the top}
when i leave to see the , i hope you will all love
my best suit and also the MANIA that hooks into your ears
and empties out my brain at any given moment in time.
carry it with you until the day that you *die*
i have nothing left to offer anyone anymore.
i will be alright and i will be sure to take a breath before i leave.
only i will know exactly how long my lungs will inflate my chest.
i was never really any good dealing with the cold either.
but if i could last, i would like to see different {colors}.
i do not need to see different life, shapes, or even sizes.
it is always been a {color} thing to me and always will be.
a person can use {color} for anything and everything.
a {color} could suggest a feeling or even a temperature.
but if it is not CONTAINED, it could over run the composition.
{color} has to have a place even in space so cold.
but i guess i would be happy to just *die* out with the sun.
do not get me wrong.. i do not want to *die* at this point,
i just do not feel like i have a place on this |earth| now.
i do not want to be eaten alive by the swarms and forms.
i do not want to become part of the human ocean.
although i do not wish to be a part of this anymore,
i do hope you all take a piece of me into your.
i may not be leaving the best projection onto you but,
i have learned a lot from everyone and anyone.
even if we were never able to see eye to eye on this |earth|.
when i sleep, i know you all to be trying your best.
when i sleep i hold no grudge and i flow like water.
when i leave, i would like things to be as close as possible.
i would like to have unconditional for all of you.