10.22
all i can think of to describe this ep is the word chilling
i think there's a slight difference between horror and being horrified. i wouldn't describe 10.22 as horror, but i was definitely horrified.
horrified at dean, obviously, not only for saying unforgivable things to sam at charlie's pyre but also for beating the everloving shit out of his best friend and murdering an innocent kid and so on and so forth. (remember the first time dean ever attacked cas, and nearly broke his hand? and now he flings cas around like a rag-doll. the mark is a scary sonofabitch.)
horrified by the ending before that blessed merciful angle switch that told us cas was alive, for now. i nearly passed out, literally, after that reveal. it's been a long time since i've been actually afraid of cas dying, and it hit me like a train last night. i can't think of any worse way for my second-favourite bb to go than at the hands of his own best friend, like, fuck. i think sam and cas are gonna be well and truly ruined by what dean has done to them this ep, and i can't blame them.
horrified by crowley. and holy shit, i never thought i'd say that. i honestly don't know what was so scary about him--those eyes in that face? the fact that they were smoking? the noise when he pulled the bullet out? the "you're only alive because i allow it"? the look of pure "oh shit" on rowena's face when she found out her magic hadn't worked? fuuuck. i've only ever felt those same chills once before with spn, and it was the scene with lucifer speaking through the dead nun. that's powerful. that's amazing tv.
horrified for sam and cas, which i think goes without saying. this is something they've never REALLY dealt with before. they've always been the ones to go off the rails. when the person you've counted on forever to be there to save you is the one falling down the rabbit hole, what the fuck do you do?
and to bring it back, of course, horrified by dean, horrified for dean, conflicted--because i want him back, the real dean, the charming asshole dean, and because this dean terrifies me, this dean doesn't have any sense of the delineations of good and evil anymore, not with others and not with himself--but also angry, because he's being stubborn and stupid and incredibly hurtful; but also sad, because i miss him, and i was so content watching s10 without the anger i had towards him in s9, and now that's gone again. i don't know what i want to happen. i just really miss the days of dean putting spoons in sam's mouth while he sleeps and taking blackmail pics, and the biggest problem in the world being a missing father. i know that's what they're going for, making us miss the way things used to be, and damn they did it well.
i hope s11 gives us some of that back, because idk how much more my heart can take, honestly.
i think there's a slight difference between horror and being horrified. i wouldn't describe 10.22 as horror, but i was definitely horrified.
horrified at dean, obviously, not only for saying unforgivable things to sam at charlie's pyre but also for beating the everloving shit out of his best friend and murdering an innocent kid and so on and so forth. (remember the first time dean ever attacked cas, and nearly broke his hand? and now he flings cas around like a rag-doll. the mark is a scary sonofabitch.)
horrified by the ending before that blessed merciful angle switch that told us cas was alive, for now. i nearly passed out, literally, after that reveal. it's been a long time since i've been actually afraid of cas dying, and it hit me like a train last night. i can't think of any worse way for my second-favourite bb to go than at the hands of his own best friend, like, fuck. i think sam and cas are gonna be well and truly ruined by what dean has done to them this ep, and i can't blame them.
horrified by crowley. and holy shit, i never thought i'd say that. i honestly don't know what was so scary about him--those eyes in that face? the fact that they were smoking? the noise when he pulled the bullet out? the "you're only alive because i allow it"? the look of pure "oh shit" on rowena's face when she found out her magic hadn't worked? fuuuck. i've only ever felt those same chills once before with spn, and it was the scene with lucifer speaking through the dead nun. that's powerful. that's amazing tv.
horrified for sam and cas, which i think goes without saying. this is something they've never REALLY dealt with before. they've always been the ones to go off the rails. when the person you've counted on forever to be there to save you is the one falling down the rabbit hole, what the fuck do you do?
and to bring it back, of course, horrified by dean, horrified for dean, conflicted--because i want him back, the real dean, the charming asshole dean, and because this dean terrifies me, this dean doesn't have any sense of the delineations of good and evil anymore, not with others and not with himself--but also angry, because he's being stubborn and stupid and incredibly hurtful; but also sad, because i miss him, and i was so content watching s10 without the anger i had towards him in s9, and now that's gone again. i don't know what i want to happen. i just really miss the days of dean putting spoons in sam's mouth while he sleeps and taking blackmail pics, and the biggest problem in the world being a missing father. i know that's what they're going for, making us miss the way things used to be, and damn they did it well.
i hope s11 gives us some of that back, because idk how much more my heart can take, honestly.